_____Queen Of My Heart *

2010-06-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

I'VE SWITCHED!! (:

2010-04-14T10:08:00.001+08:00

okay, it's really been a long long time since i last updated my blog. i'll try my best to post this random thought that has been on my mind for the longest time ever after making certain decision, so.. whoever that is still reading my blog can have 5 mins of your time wasted here when i'm done. (:

2010-03-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

know what's more annoying? the fact that you're angry with someone, and they never knew it.

2010-03-16T14:08:00.002+08:00

Have you ever met with an situation whereby someone apologised to you, and yet retaliate back whatever they just apologised in the end?

Personally, I feel that if you are trying to clear the situation through apologising, then you should just accept whatever that they said (regarding the matter and not too extreme of course), cause if you were to continue to retaliate, then the apology is not going to work anymore. Seriously, why apologise when you've already decided to rebutt back whatever they said? If you feel you're not in the wrong, then don't apologise. It's not going to make the matter easier in any ways if you apologised and then take your own stand in the end.

I have never talked anything bad about you in front of anybody. So please don't make me have the first time in doing that. But then again, you wouldn't have any idea at all, because you'll probably always think that I'm always badmouthing you to everyone I know.

It's a lucky thing that there's still my trip that can make me slightly happier, if not I would have been the most emo-whore on earth.

2010-03-02T14:29:00.002+08:00

randoms.

I don't understand. Why is emma watson soooo pretty?!

and why is logan lerman soooo dashing in percy jackson?!

and the worse part is...

WHY ARE THEY YOUNGER THAN ME!??! :(

2010-03-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

I realized I've been way too nice to everyone I know. Like always being understanding for whatever lousy reasons that people gives regardless of any event or situation, and always not asking further question about the reasons given and all. That, I think has got to stop for my own good, because somehow some people just took advantage of me. Then again, it's probably because they don't see me as important as I see them in my life, that's why they took advantage.

And also, I don't see the need to tell people that you miss them badly and everything when you don't even mean it. Because, wouldn't it be too tiring for you to try to keep in touch with people that you don't even deem them as important in your life? I'd rather they don't start all the "oh i miss you so much! when are we meeting up?" crap so that people wouldn't get any false hope of being able to meet them and all. Seriously? why bother saying that if you don't mean it? Just be true to yourself, and life would be so much easier because you won't have to deal with all the insincere interpersonal relationship.

So people, don't try to make any promises when you don't even intend to keep it. I've also decided to not talk to those that I realized I'm not as important to them in their life anymore, so that my life can be simpler, and to stop viewing whatever blogs/facebook stuffs that they have. They lead their life, I lead mine. As cruel as it may sound, I'm losing friends for good.

Ahh, now I feel so much more relieved after letting this out of my mind.

2010-02-19T09:38:00.001+08:00

i have so much things to say, but i don't know where to start from.

to say the truth, i'm pretty lost now. someone enlighten me please?

2010-01-29T18:51:00.003+08:00

recently, (okay not very recently, but you get the idea.) i've been seeing alot of people and hearing alot of stories about how they feel that people befriending them only for the advantages and benefits. and when they don't need you, don't just walk out of your life.

personally, i find that really saddening, because i've never felt that way towards anyone before, therefore i never knew people would really go to that extent to "make use" of friends for the benefits, not at our age at least. why should people go around making use of their friends in the first place? if you genuinely treated them as friends, then why is there even a thought of making use of your friends?? wouldn't you be guilty conscious of even making use of someone? that's just morally wrong man.

after all these, i realized that i'm really fortunate to have my friends still staying by my side after so long; maybe it's because there's nothing else to make use of with them and too used to having them by my side already lah. AHHAHAH okay kidding really, i swear. my secondary school pals, they're just too wonderful, even though they're hardcore clubbers (guys) and hardcore eaters (girls), i still love them many many, because they've colored too much rich colors in my life. (:

of course, not forgetting my poly mates and my boyf! with all of you in my life, there's nothing else i can ask for (:

thank you my lovely friends, for stepping into my life and making it so colorful. (:

2010-01-20T13:53:00.002+08:00

hello world.

there's like 2 more weeks of school left before the main examination starts, and things are starting to feel alot more exciting as the day slips away.
now that my birthday celebration is over, i'm waiting for claudia's one, and my 6 other lovely girlf's too! this year is gonna be an awesome year i believe. (:

the only sad part is probably the fact that my dear boyf is off for 4 days only, and i'm missing him badly already. how are you doing my dear boy? i hope you're doing well and enjoying!

i promise to have a belated birthday celebration after you come back okay (:

okay my lesson is starting, gotta scoot off!

now that everything has been cleared, i'm feeling better already (:

2010-01-12T10:59:00.002+08:00

i'm pretty upset by some of the things i've saw in facebook. if you don't really feel like coming for my birthday, i'm really fine with it. just seriously tell me straight and i can accept it.

and to you, i'm merely asking to see if there's any ideas for me. why so rude? if there's one thing you really need to learn, is to learn to socialize the right way and not be so rude to your friend's friend. so what if we have some complicating connections? how long has it been already seriously. grow up will you!

i don't care if i've unintentionally or intentionally hurt you emotionally or whatever crap. i feel what is right at this point of time with whatever i say, so shut your ass. i haven't felt so angry for a long time already, so just let me be.

what a ruined day. i should just go back home to sleep after school.

2009-12-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

hello world.

my 3 weeks of holiday is ending really soon, and i wouldn't say i wasted my holiday doing nothing; but i can't say i have done alot of things either. holiday mood is still ongoing for me, probably because there's alot of events and birthdays during this 3 weeks of holiday and afterwards. oh, and did i mention about my birthday celebration? bob wouldn't be there to celebrate with me on my actual day, so i'm kinda disappointed. so people, i'm pretty free on my actual day! hahaha.

recently i'm super hooked to this taiwanese variety show - 大學生了沒, it's totally filling up my boring time, so much that it almost took away my sleeping time. yes, that's how hooked i am to this show.

christmas celebration was pretty brief for me, gift exchange was done with my friends, but overall i enjoyed myself alot. this 3 weeks of holiday, it made me thought alot, and i felt contented by alot of things too. well, at least i'm not feeling unhappy and ungrateful about things now! (:

i'm getting really lazy to update these days, facebook is the root of all evil to my laziness. hahahahaa.

6 more days to carrie's major 21st birthday, 5 more days till holiday ends and my 4 ut2, 3 more days to the start of a new year and my 42nd month with bob, and 2 more days to dingjun's birthday and countdown to new year! aww, so many activities! how i wish holiday is a bit longer :/.

2009-12-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i wonder why do some people have to act like they're close to you, when actually they hated you so badly? if it's because they get benefit from the people they hate, then i'd say they're really pathetic. why still try to gain benefit from the people you dislike so badly? that makes you look thoroughly pathetic only, seriously.

anyway, i realized i have been missing out on you, you and your life! so people, please date me asap!

2009-12-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

i think i should start taking back japanese language lesson and kickboxing lesson again; at least i would feel my life is more worthwhile. and start making money too.

you wouldn't have any idea of what i am going through right now..

anyways, i can't wait for my holiday to start! it's so gonna be filled with loads of activities! ((:

and mr T, please remember to make yourself free on 19th december, it's my sister's birthday celebration!

2009-12-04T11:15:00.002+08:00

a short break from lesson and i'm here to revive my blog! (:

i had encountered some incidents recently and i realized how easily people can change due to the good things that they thought they've seen on the other side. like what people say, "the grass is always greener on the other side." and when people decided to jump to there, have they thought of the consequences that may come along with it?
people will comment regardless of whether you're doing something good or bad, and when you've decided to do it, why be bothered by what people comment? if you feel happy or relieved doing that, then so be it. they're not you, they can't feel what you're feeling. if you've done something bad, then suck thumb and move along already. why stay on and get angry over what has been done and said? just remember that if someone has jumped for you because they think that you're better or vice versa, they can also do the same to other people as well.

also, does being in a relationship means you have to lose your friends? i strongly disagree on that, and i'm sure most of my friends feel the same way too. but, does being in a clique gives you the right to neglect your other friends that you met somewhere else? you'll only realize soon enough that you're gonna lose all your friends faster than you expected. when the time comes, don't go back running to the friends you've neglected and complain about how bad they've done to you and everything, because you're doing exactly the same thing to them as well. if you feel that you have your boyf/girlf with you and that there's nothing to worry about, think again. when you don't have your boyf/girlf anymore, what are you going to do?

i swear this is not directing at anyone, but something that i've been pondering about after some incidents. i'm not trying to side anyone either, just a food for thought. (:

okay just nice, lesson started.

2009-11-21T13:05:00.002+08:00

what will you do, if you found out that some things have started to tilt towards the direction of irreversible?

will you start to salvage, or will you just let it tilt till it disappears?

2009-11-09T12:54:00.001+08:00

我是真的很不开心。

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a question for you silent readers,

does songs affect the way you think? or the way you think affect the choice of the songs you listen to?

2009-11-05T14:41:00.002+08:00

i've been falling asleep in class and feeling utterly cold even with jacket on, and out of the 3 days i've attended the lesson, i've been feeling the same for all 3 days.

i'm afraid i might be sick already. ):

this sucks alot, cause i don't feel like doing anything at all.. not even caring about the grades. @#$%T$# suckkkkkkk.

okay back to presentation.

2009-11-03T11:26:00.003+08:00

Subaru challenge has ended for me after 3 days of grueling work.
took pretty loads of photos, but it'll take some time to upload it.

lesson is ultimately boring right now, and i've got no one to sms with cause my dear boy is away for field camp; luckily my weekdays are filled with loads of events.
and did i mention my class is already planning to skip this damn lesson? it's politics and more politics, which bores all of us to death.
okay i gotta get back to my resources which i've been re-reading the same sentence for 1000^100 times.

ps: i took photo with JUSTIN ANGG :D

2009-10-29T14:04:00.002+08:00

3 things completed after school:

completed the initial benchmark set for the number of laps to be swam.
camwhore and had a little adventure.
yoshinoya dinner! ♥

met up with gfs someday after school and had loads of discussion. totally can't waitt!

tan cheng hoon, claudia chew yi jun and jeannette ke xiao qing, when are we going to meet?!

anyways, i've decided not to upload pictures here anymore; i've already morphing into an ultimate lazy girl with no ambition but to rot at home everyday after school. plus, i'll only be updating my life here when i still have the energy to do it and something slightly happening occurs in my life. if not, say hello to my pet spiders (:

okay, back to my kang xi marathon!

2009-10-21T12:46:00.002+08:00

omgosh, it's been a zillion years since i last updated this blog.

but a short note before my memory fails me again:

hi tingyun, don't know if you're reading this or not, but i'm really glad you're feeling better. sorry that i couldn't skype with you earlier on cause my sister is hogging on to the laptop. please study hard and pass your final terms!

hello amy, i miss you big time. now that you've flown off to BKK (AGAIN :@), i've got no chance to express my love to you. boooooooo.

okay, i'll update again soon. i have too many things to say, too many photos to upload, too many task to be completed. gosh.

2009-09-23T15:21:00.002+08:00

how did everyone spent your 20/09/2009?

mine was a well spent day.

played amazing race with amy on her birthday, threw eggs and flour on her and made her do stupid stunts, helped her shower(!), buzzed through the crowded expressway filled with different races trying to go to their relative's house for hari raya celebration, celebrated elaine's birthday at wala wala, and spent the night watching man united vs man city live with a bunch of fans.

okay i felt the need to say all these out, cause i can't find anyone to talk to right now? lol ):.

i'll update a post soon with pictures. amy's birthday alone took close to 700 pictures after taking out the rubbish photos from her camera and mine.

have an enjoyable weekend you guys (:

2009-09-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

i was starting to plan for my 21st and amy's 20th birthday and bob's ORD when something struck me really hard; money is really a bigass issue right now.

money. it's a huge topic in everyone's life right now for people in my age and above. how do people always manage to have money to shop, enjoy life and still get to save money? lots of people would say "work.". so when you choose to work, what type of work would that be? office-bound? retail/F&B? office bound would be an option to those who has graduated or those who are having long holidays. but, office-bound jobs are already taking a pretty huge part in your everyday time; so where do you find time to enjoy with friends? same goes for retail or F&B workers. these are even harder to manage their time; cause weekends is a must to work as you're serving people as your job. with weekends burnt, where do you get the time to be with friends even when you earned the money?

i have a very dear friend of mine, she's working office-bound job. but she still manages to meet her friends and accompany her boyf nonetheless. but the big sacrifice is that she has to burn away the time to rest and time for herself and family. do you call that good then?

some people at my age have already earned a lump sum of moolahs and saving for their future; some even had the ability to already earn for their family and own their own cars. and when these are being reflected at myself, i would feel so remorseful.. cause i am such a big failure. i don't have a job, i'm not meeting up with friends enough, and i definitely got no lump sum of money in my bank.

i know the solution is simple; why can't i just find a job, right? i blame on exterior factors. i didn't want to get a retail/f&B job cause i know my weekends are the only time i get to be with my boyf; and if i work in that line, i would be back to my old days where i would slog my ass off and still earn very little due to the limited working hours, and that limited working hours would be more than enough for me to meet up with my friends. tuition jobs would be an easy way to go, but... i can't seem to find any? ):

yea, i know i've been really greedy. but i know it's possible to find such a job. also, i'm already 20 years old, i don't want to waste anymore time away not able to meet my friends and enjoy life. i still want to go overseas with my gfs and boyf, get a new camera and etc. but.. life just sucks badly when you walked to the wrong path and you're stucked there.

money oh money, please be nice to me again.

2009-09-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

its been so long since I last blogged! but today's purpose of blogging is to talk about the recent (okay, not exactly recent la.) birthday celebration my clique came up with for the 2 lucky babes.

the first one was wendy's birthday, where we raised a pretty hefty sum (to us its alot, given how little we always contribte in the past) and gave it to her in ang pao form, and the rest in our self made vouchers so she can redeem from us. the plan was pretty impromptu, cause we didnt plan how to give her the present. so we ended up asking her to do some dares. we thought of various ideas, like asking a few random guys to give her a hug, take pictures With one handsome and ugly guy, and asking a group of people to sing her a birthday song, and lastly sing a birthday song to a group of people. So.. we ended up choosing the picture taking with the ugly and less uglier guy. HAHAA! it was really fun actually, even the birthdy girl enjoyed herself (: the other shall remain secret for now, cause her birthday celebration isnt here yet. its actually something very typical to others, but to us its really something cause we dont do it in the past when we celebrate each others' birthday. no fancy restaurants anymore! (:

btw, bob is going to pop! <3 and im glad i get to meet up with my friends during my holidays, especially my girlfriends.

its really incredible when amy and i were talking about how sticky our secondary school clique is, so much that its close to half of our life since we stuck on to each other. i mean, how many people get to have a large clique of friends still together for half of your life? you may have 1 or 2, or more than that, but not a clique like.. mine right? its really lucky if you have one like mine, cause i really feel lucky and blessed to have them in my life even though sometimes they all sucked to the max. HAHAA okay kidding la! but still, thank you so much for making my life so worthwhile for the half of my life (:

okay i gotta stop typing. my hands are getting cramps from typing these already, and i still got half of the things i've yet to say. gosh. typing using bob's omnia sucked badly, cause his sensor got problem, And my hp can't go wifi. stupid phone :@ can't wait for blackberry tour to come out! :D

2009-08-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

okay i think i'm a tad slow, but i'm pretty addicted to the korean version of FLY 4 now. it's definitely not because they're handsome or what (they look even more feminine than me can :@) but it's really sweet to see what ku jun pyo has done for jan di (ji dan, egg??) and stuffs.

enough said. how did everyone spend your national day? i spent mine eating mac with bob and watching the parade at home. the day before, welfred decided to be really nice and drove the few of us out for a spin; too bad none of us brought camera ): let's go there again shall we please please please!!

i had a few things in mind; first of all, a really big thanks and giant hug to my boyf who has done alot to accommodate me, cause well, it's not an easy thing to do for him to agree with the things i wanna do! ((: makes me appreciate him even more. love you! *mushy X 10*

secondly, i was talking to a few of my friends online for the past few days; and i gotta say. i think i have to stop "stalking" people already. getting updates of someone's life so frequently is bound to make someone sick of you easily i guess. then slowly, people will find you boring and everything, then for all you know, starts to treat you hypocrite-ly? i don't know. it's such a high price to be caring for someone. i think so much that i've been seen as someone kaypoh and nosey again.

haiyoo, why do i always encounter this kinda stuffs leh :/. first the friend snatcher thingy, then now this kaypoh and all. i guess there's something wrong with me handling stuffs that's why.

okay, so from now on, i'm not going to care for any of my friends whom feels that i'm.. poking in their business? and only care for those who genuinely wanted me to care. (:

i'm open for applications okay!! hahahaa shit. Ian's gonna say that i'm friendless again. boo.

2009-08-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

hi there love. i think i really do miss you badly. come back safe and sound even though i know you would.

cheers to us being together for 1131 days! ♥

ilu <3

2009-07-27T17:14:00.000+08:00

I have a confession to make.

I feel that i have been neglecting my best friend for a long long time. Usually this is something that i will definitely do something to it, but surprisingly, this is probably the only thing i cannot bring myself to do it. I feel really... ashamed of myself for not doing anything at all. but i feel that the reason for me not doing anything is because i know that this time, it's really my wrong, and there's nothing i can do to salvage it, cause... it's just different already.

after talking to my best friend about it some time back, i felt really guilty, because she gave me alot of suggestions, and i know it will definitely work if i do it. but there's a thought that's holding me back, and that is.. could it be that me finding back friends, it's only because i got no one to be with? i know deep down inside that it's definitely not that case for me, cause if i only want to find companion to be with when i got no one else, i could have easily find some people and be new friends with them, and new companion found. but no, it's not that. i want to find my friends back because i know i have been neglecting them for a long long time. but, i don't want you, my best friend, to feel that i'm looking for you again to be a spare tire or some sort; sometimes i feel that you do feel that way about me. i may be wrong about that, but i'm really sorry if you feel that i am like this. please understand the reason for me talking to you once again and asking you to go out and such, and that is i really want to have the bond back with you again. but deep down inside, i guess i know that, it's just not going to be the same again. i have been through thick and thin with you before, but not anymore. you have found someone else to go through your sadness and sorrow, happiness and joy, anger and despair with you, and that person is not me anymore.

don't get me wrong, cause i am really happy for you. but it's probably due to the... change in feelings? like, we were once best friends, but not anymore. like, i know we used to share lots of secrets together, but now we don't share as much, and we both know it. like, a couple that was once together but broke up, and the 习惯性 is still there? yes, that's probably the word. i think it's pretty stupid of me to be holding onto something that doesn't seem to be there anymore, but it's really hard to put it down, you know? you feel there's still hope in salvaging it, and yet another part of you feels that there's no point in doing it cause, it's different already.

please do not feel stressed or what by what i said, cause i don't expect you to forgive me for not doing anything to our friendship, cause.. it's really my fault for this to happen. but i want you to understand when i look for you again, it will never be because i feel lonely or what, but it's only i want to have the bond back, despite the major dilemma that i'm having right now.

okay, this sounds so much like talking to a boyf. but you do understand, right? (: i know you hardly read my blog, but in case you do read my blog, you will understand what i'm trying to say, right? (:

love and always, xy.

2009-07-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

just when i have the inspiration to blog about my overdue events, i realized i didn't have the time to finish it.

i'll try my best to come up with the post by this weekend. i'll prolly start from tmr. :/.

alright, sports coaching tmr. hope MK doesn't walk past and catch me in slippers again :S

2009-06-30T11:10:00.002+08:00

a summarized thought for the past weeks.

sorry for not updating as often. i've been wanting to revamp my blog but laze bug decided to be a tenant in my life for now, so wait till then.

anyways, i've been quarantine by school, so i can't attend lesson. some of you might think it's nice, but it's actually kind of feeling at loss cause, you know you can attend for lesson and yet you can't?? all thanks to this stupid classmate of mine. no, i'm not blaming the one who has gotten H1N1, but the one who "cursed" us by wishing that the class gotten H1N1 so we don't have to come back for lessons. damn it lah omg.

other than that, life has been pretty normal for me. 2 weeks has passed and i get to meet bob again for 2 days before sending him off again, and schedule has been pretty packed these days so i don't get bored. (: loads of photos are piling up laaaa (i suspect it must have been ty's bug. ever since she left to aussie for studies she's been pretty hardworking! her bug must have been terrified by the coldness and decided to jump onto the potential victim aka me :@) but luckily it can be found in facebook!

i kind of figured that having a blog is a chore and it's slowly getting boring cause i don't really update anymore, and not like there's anyone coming in here to read either. might as well close it :/. or maybe i'll just switch to LJ for good.

There's some stuffs that's been boggling my mind for quite some time. It's nothing important at all, cause i don't even understand why am i being bothered by it. Still, i'm very very unhappy and irked by the actions of someone. okay, no naming competition here! but urgh. please get a life and seriously, @#$%.

I need to find more time to meet my gfs!! and really to sit down and spend time to talk to ty, cause i haven't been able to have a good chat with her after she left. ty, miss me already right :$ i promise you i'll find time out this week (by tmr i promise) to update you about ohanas and my life! sorry no pictures cause you know hoon lah... she likes to use her cam alot ah.

everyone, please take good care of yourselves, cause yesterday i read the news, there's already 629 cases in singapore. it's going to escalate even more, so please uh. TAKE GOOD CARE!! especially you LTY! aussie is really dangerous now. :S:S and to my gf working in polyclinic, please disinfect yourself properly everyday after work alright!

andddd, hello my vegan friendssss. let's meet up for a vegan meal someday after this week? :$ sorry i can't join you for badminton this coming week manz C, this quarantine thingy is really #$%T. next week okay please please!

a few things i need to do/buy:

comb
upload pictures
clear my rubbish by the bedside
brush teeth AHAHHAHAH
lotion and shampoo!
EAT.

lastly, it's one more day! how time flies. (:

ps: i'm thinking if i should go see a doc cause i started sneezing o.o sinus, or the dusty environment i'm in causing my sneeze? or.....

2009-06-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

a random thought.

i can't believe i treated you like a friend when all these while, you've probably treated me nothing more than a fair-weather friend. you're such a selfish b*tch and thought about nothing but yourself, and prolly someone else whom you wanna compete with. your superficial thoughts disgust me so much i can't imagine why i believe that i can be friends with you despite your awful flaws that really puts me off.

yes so you know you should be nice to your true friends and bffs, that doesn't mean you can afford to forget other friends. and by saying friends i mean your OWN friends, not your friend's friends or your classmates or even your boyf's friend or whoever. dude, WAKE UP! you're seriously such a deluded idiot that i suddenly realized what a fool i was thinking that we could be friends!

yes you do have your positive points. but what are those? i never get to see it. all i see was a person filled with negative flaws and not cherishing what they should be. yes, you have a wonderful family, great partner. but your friends? other than your so-called realization for that friend of yours, you prolly have no more friends left. seriously, please work on your social skills cause honestly speaking, it sucked to the core.

last note, i'm so not going to care about you anymore. i pity you, my friend, who happens to be the person's friend. i wish you can just get out of my friend's life and stop getting dragged down by you. damn it, you really sucked.

2009-05-27T13:46:00.003+08:00

oh no! singapore has gotten its first H1N1 case ):!

extracted from http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_382278.html

The patient, a 22-year-old Singaporean woman, had been in New York from May 14 to 24, and arrived here on Tuesday morning.

While seated in row 55 on Singapore Airlines flight SQ25, she began to develop a cough, but she passed the thermal scanner at the airport later without being stopped, because she did not have a fever at the time.
Later that morning, she went to a general practitioner who decided to send her to Tan Tock Seng Hospital via the special ambulance service 993 meant for suspected Influenza A (H1N1) cases.
Laboratory test confirmed her infection at midnight on Tuesday.

this is bad. now dad will definitely not allow me to go batam now ):

i promise to update all the major days i've spent once i get the pictures, so please wait!

i'm thinking of changing my blog link.. hmmm.

2009-05-26T02:07:00.002+08:00

holiday's coming! but sadly bob's going in NS soon at the same time. ):

quite a few things happened and not everything is good either :/.

but then again, may is such a busy busy month cause there's too many people's birthday! jayner's, huijuan's, elaine's, derrick's... gosh. i'm really broke. :/.

P.S. babe, i'm really sorry for not being able to do anything to cheer you up ):. but like i always said, please remember that you have me, you have your lovely friends and you have your ever supporting parents, okay? (: don't worry, you'll get through this no matter what, with the help of your friends and if i may, me too (:

P.S. another girl, please always remember that everyone has got their family problems! we will get through this with you too alright! don't forget, you have J with you by your side!

P.S. bestie, we haven't meet up for a certain time. please look for me when i'm working in food expo yes? (: i miss having dinner with you!

P.S. my jogging and next bestie, let's plan a day to jog during our june hols! i wanna go shopping too. YOUR SHOE!!! tempted to the max! (: and i miss you already!

P.S. boyfriend, you're going in soon manz. i'm so going to miss you many ): meanwhile, please have as much fun with your guys alright!

pictures to be uploaded.. soon i hope. i'm having a really busy week. :/.

2009-05-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

if only everyday is so carefree like this, i wouldn't mind getting more stings from there. the only thing i need to worry about is probably the lack of TV shows and getting closer to becoming a malay, or even an indian soon.

pictures are uploaded in the facebook, but it's pretty pointless to say it here, cause most of you would've already know it before you read this blog.

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alright alright, i'll try to collage the photos before the upcoming event soon.

till then, school really sucks.

2009-05-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

I'M GOING OFF NOW. SEE YOU GUYS WHEN I'M BACK ON MONDAY! :D

miss me!

2009-05-14T12:17:00.004+08:00

i promised an update of my mundane life, so here it is. just a note though, not many photos will be showed here cause there's a few activities i haven't managed to get.

alright, let me see..

1st week of may:

it was derrick's 21st big day on 2nd may, and all of us headed to his house for celebration.
a pity jialing wasn't there; or not we'll have a full house already! (:

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a date out with bob love on sunday; a rare day cause he's been working and me schooling, so we haven't got a chance to go on a date for a really loong time. (: thanks for the day love!

2nd week of may:

a K and meeting session with gfs on friday; and man, did we camwhore to the max!

i only have these 6 pictures with me cause the rest is with amy.
met up with joleen and carrie for dinner and had a kind of heart to heart talk. like i mentioned in the previous post, it's really great to see them once again! don't forget about out june date babes! save money :D:D

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had a shopping date with wendy on saturday, and roamed around town while she look for her stuffs. super tempted by loads of things and found out that wendy and i has really similar styles; even the things we like are the same! (:
oh yea, before we headed down to town, we went to tampines One to take a look at Uniqlo's bra top campaign; quite disappointing leh, cause the staffs all zipped their jackets, so you can't see anything. a good thing is i saw richson, a classmate of mine this semester! hahaaa really random.

settled down at The Cathay and joined the CKK. okay so we really camwhore alot. did i mention we actually found a new tool to take different pictures? :P

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had a really short dinner with claud babe on tuesday this week, and hahahaa we really gossiped to the max! let's meet up next week, okay twinny? :D

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going down to meet the poly people later with bob. hopefully it'll turn out good! (:
i'm soo excited for this coming weekend; even though i won't be joining the chalet, which is like a big disappointment ):, but i hope the weekend i'll have an equal amount of fun as i would have in chalet! the downside would be that, i'll be having my first UT on friday, and i just found out today! SHUCKS.

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okay, enough talk. my oldie slamdunk is broadcasting now and i don't wanna miss it!
i'll update again tonight! have a great weekend people (:

2009-05-08T23:27:00.005+08:00

had a day out with my girlfriends just now, and there's this overwhelming feeling that I'm not able to explain it. But I'll say it's really, really, honestly great to see all of them once again, making time out for each other just to have dinner and short talks. (: of course, the feeling of wanting to have an overseas trip with them has never died. and i gotta say i'm really disappointed that i can't join the upcoming chalet ):. this has got to be the very first time i didn't participate! But i promise that I'll compensate it to you guys soon! (:

And after the meetup, it reminded me think of the things I seemed to be neglecting lately.

First of all, i seem to be neglecting some of my girlfriends' feeling. I sincerely apologize for whatever i've done to disappoint you all ): really. You'll never believe how important you babes are to me since the day i met you all. And i promise, that no matter what happens, i will be there for you all through thick and thin. (: okay, sounds super cheesy and cliche. HAHAHAA!

The second thing that i've been neglecting is probably my feelings for my love.
My love, i know you've been working really hard these days, and adding on my schooling days and tuition, there isn't any much time for us to meet up. even if we do meet, it's always a tiring thing for you, cause you can't have much rest. To that, i really feel guilty and sorry about it. I have to admit that i am becoming much more dependent on you, even though at times I don't seem to be behaving that way. Cause i know, that i shouldn't make you worry about not spending enough time with me, which might lead to you not being able to meet up with the guys, or even the Ohanas. But, please remember our promise to go overseas together after your NS, alright? there's still a ton of things we've yet to do; like our jack's place dinner that you've promised me since you started holding my hands, and our sentosa trip? not forgetting a home-cook candle-lit dinner! All these requires money, yes i am aware of it. But I am doing my best to work and earn more money, so that I don't have to feed off from you if i ever need to, and help the both of us to fulfill our wishes for each other (: Aww shucks, I'm missing you already. ):

Third thing, I haven't been able to meet up with some of my other friends. People like Zhang, Claudia, Tingyun, etc. I hope you guys understands my situation here and although it seems like our time table always clashes, i'm sure we'll be able to find a time for each other, yes? (: Claud, I have TONS of things to gossip with you! please meet up with me soon!!

Lastly, to my dearest grand.
Okay, you don't read it, but there's a need for me to have an output to this topic, thus the para for you grand love.
I know i haven't been treating you nice lately, and not coming back for dinner and such. But i hope you understand that I'm schooling during the day and tutoring during the night. As for the rest of my time, It's either meeting up with friends or.. well, still meeting up with friends. Please do not mistake me as not liking your food. I really love it to bits, but sometimes I just can't have the time out to eat at home ): I'm really sorry for not being there by your side when you're doing your operation the day before, as I have school to attend to. Now that you're over at aunt's house, i hope you're getting better treatment than the shitty ones i've given you. My main point here is, grands, i really love you to bits. Just don't keep questioning me about what i do and assume things. Cause i really don't like it ):

alright, you've just wasted 10 mins of your life reading nothing important to you.

okay i'll try to update about my life and whereabouts at... prolly this coming weekend?

2009-05-01T00:49:00.004+08:00

thought of the day

there's so many things that a person wants to do, even though there's only that much things a person can do. how often does people look back to see what they have missed, and how often does people look forward and move on with life instead of staying at where they are?

so many people have said it, yet i bet hardly anyone who says it, does it.
yes, if you're one of those who think of this theory, you're one of them too.
yes of course, you can choose not to bother it and move on with life. but by saying that, you're only contradicting what you've just mentioned about looking back to see what you have missed.

many people said that "things come and go. so do humans.". I thought I've grasp this theory well, but it turns out that it only applies to some of them that i've know. And never have i thought of applying this theory onto my secondary school bunch. nope, seriously never. and i doubt i will either. (:

browsing through my laptop's super old pictures and i dug this out; this is one hell of a memorable one manz! this is probably the very last chalet the 8 of us have together. and talking with a few of my gfs a few days back, it just makes me even more wanting to meet all of you once again, be it for dinner only, or just to crap and nua at someone's house. it's probably only you guys that i wanted to do that. if it's other cliques that i know of, i'll just skip it right away.

alright, my main purpose of blogging was because it's 1st of may 09, which is labour day, which also marks the 34th month of my life with bobby toong my love. (:

happy 34th month love! i'm sorry we can't celebrate today like how we did last year, but monday we'll make it up to each other, yes? (:

happy labour day once again everyone, i hope you'll have an enjoyable long weekend (:

2009-04-22T22:58:00.004+08:00

of all the random rantings in the world.

will being caring be mistaken as being kaypo?

i think that's how people think of me when i asked people questions. people, whom i'm not as close to, that is.

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sidetracked abit,

school has started. classroom seems the same, presentation felt the same, the old pal PDT is always there. what's changed? the people in the class, and the person teaching the class.
not to mention that there's no more friends and people whom you're familiar with to have lunch with you anymore.

hmmm, i'm beginning to miss the days where the familiar faces always stand outside my class staring at me to get out during lunch time.

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it's a pretty lucky thing to have not alot of your friends (close or not) reading your blog anymore; at least you don't have to worry about blogging something you might fear for some to read. right?

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there's too many things running in my mind now, so many that it feels like bees buzzing around non-stop. it's making me unable to turn myself off to sleep, and to make the matter worse, my cough is itching to become the latest hobby of mine.

for now, i really wish to go overseas soon. i need t get all the shit outta my mind. godz.

oh yea, i've decided to be MIA for a really long time now before i find myself a new life to live in.

or maybe.. all i needed is a change of mindset. then again, easier said than done. *shrugs

2009-04-15T21:52:00.003+08:00

have you ever wondered if anyone else has met this problem where your life seemed to be at the most bottom pit, and nothing you did seems to help to pull you up either. and when you thought you've finally moved out of the bottom pit, everything crumbles down and you're back to square one.

depressing isn't it? when you thought you've finally gotten out of it and starting a brand new life, you got pulled back into reality and back to where you were. what's worse is, you don't land back where you were; instead, you land further, deeper down, making it even more harder to climb back up again.

of course, everyone will always comfort one another, saying things like "oh, don't worry. you will be able to climb back up from where you fell.", or "always look on the bright side of life! don't worry okay?". what they didn't know is that, people always tend to look at the down side instead of the brighter side, and it's easier said than done. and most importantly, hardly anyone put themselves in the other people's shoe, viewing the situation from all angles and everything. so if you don't put yourself in other people's shoe, how are you going to know exactly what they've gone through, and feel what they felt? isn't that making someone very superficial when you don't know how they feel, and saying all those things when you yourself know very well that it doesn't really apply?

most of us should know jolly well that most of the problems has to be solved by themselves, and not by other people. as much as other people wish to help, what they say is only a matter of opinion to you, cause ultimately you have to face the problem and stop running away from it.

face it, deal with it, and solve it.

if you can't solve it, then accept it. if you can't, FIND a way to change it. there HAS to be a way no matter what. whoever that's controlling/playing with us is being fair after all, so they WILL have a solution to the problem given to you. It's how you look at the problem and how you want to solve it.

if you want to let your life rot away with the problems piling, then go on and stop blaming anyone but yourself.

if you want to change your life, then do something to it.

that's how realistic life is. that's how practical is will be.

2009-04-12T02:21:00.002+08:00

DAMN MY DIARRHEA FOR RUINING MY NIGHT AND MY POOR BUTT.

i highly suspect it's due to my sister's daim choco. haiyeer. :@:@

'nuff said. i'm going another round of disposing again.

2009-04-08T23:45:00.004+08:00

It's all good, all right.
See ya later doesn't mean goodbye.
Cause it ain't over it's time to fly,
and we're just getting started.

remember not to neglect the best things in your life, and be content with what you hold on to now, cause there's always a chance to let it slip away and never come back. (:

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i promise to update tmr when i collaged all my photos. thanks for the day peeps. and thanks for the impromptu meetup along with the breakfast you've given me love. thanks for the wonderful day everyone has given me (:

cause all of the stars, have faded away.
just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.
take what you need, and be on your way,
and stop crying your heart out.

2009-04-03T01:40:00.003+08:00

sometimes, life makes me wonder so badly about myself. exactly what am i going to do after i graduate? after studies, what do i do after that? with recession going on now, more and more people are jobless. i'm in such a dilemma now, regardless of whether it's about friends, studies, life, or whatsoever. But one thing's for sure is that, don't ever neglect and miss out the good things in your life because once you lose it, it'll take you double the effort to get back, and nothing's gonna be the same.

i don't know what to blog about anymore because, sometimes i feel that my blog is just so content-less. empty as a vase, like my life. i want to accomplish my wishes, but it's always being hindered. sigh, when will i ever get it done? ):

alright, nuff said. i'm going on a short hiatus. TV is my new bff now. till then.

2009-04-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

太阳晒的我, 眼睛睁不开.
你的好脾气, 让我心情坏不起来
下雨下的我, 眼神发呆.
你的道歉, 听着听着我都快要笑出来.

谁说不能黑白配?
世界上没有什么事, 能够如此的绝对.
曾经有人这样唱过, 白天它不懂夜的黑, 你却懂得我的美.

有时候我会, 感觉非常累.
有时候也会, 不知觉把你拖累.
你有时会说, 我们不配.
只要能依偎, 真的真的我什么都无所谓.

谁说不能黑白配?
世界上没有什么事, 能够如此的绝对.
曾经有人这样唱过, 白天它不懂夜的黑, 你却懂得我的美.

钢琴也是黑白键, 一样能看出我对你只有满满的感谢.
也许黑永远不明白, 在这个彩色的世界有你我才会存在.

(:

2009-04-01T21:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday was almost a total hell for me, cause i've been stuck in a storeroom with prolly around.. 7 people or so? and all we heard was "beep. beep. BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!. beep. tsk, count wrong! *whisper* yes! next shelf! tsk! TSK. *BAM!* *plastic bags ruffle around* 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,9,10... wait i count wrong :@ 100,101.. BEEP, BEEP...." and, we've been stuck there for like. 14 hours straight? not forgetting we still have to continue hearing that sound out of storeroom after inside was done.

but i'm glad, cause i get to enjoy a moment of rest, not facing any annoying customers!

alright. regarding the post previously, it's over it already. so thanks for the concern people. and huiying, my chocos! DON'T EAT ALL UP AH I TELL YOU :@!

i wish we can hang out more often, but more than of often we did not. so promise me, we WILL hang out soon, be it to be rotting outside or not. promise, my friends? (:

i wanna eat ice cream all of a sudden. hmm.

2009-03-26T16:39:00.002+08:00

i randomly went to check some of my friend's blog and i found this particular person totally took out everyone's link that's related to us. i have to say that, this is just a small matter of misunderstanding like any other problems between friendship. why handle it so badly? no, i'm not saying that person is at fault, i believe both parties are. but the unwillingness to admit the mistake, it's the biggest trigger to prevent frienship from getting back again. most importantly, we're not like in primary or secondary schools already, so get real and grow up, will you?

stereotyping schools only makes things worse, you know it yourself. do you think your friends are anywhere better? think about it.
ps: i'm not flaming your friends either, but no one is perfect, seriously. GROW UP!

gosh, i've had enough of this rubbish already. like some of my friends are, "the problem is between you guys, and solve it yourself. we don't have any rights."

by the way, this is the shittiest comment i've ever heard when i needed help. go to hell.
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i need to go prepare already. hope i'm not late :/.
will update more about it tonight.. if i'm online.

2009-03-26T14:17:00.001+08:00

accompanied amy down to changi hospital on tuesday for her appointment; and had a pretty filling lunch. and i realized.... that hospital doesn't neccessarily means they sell healthy food. LOL!
headed down to this CC near simei for her badminton session; the weirdest part was, bob tagged along and he played with them. (?)

still, i think they enjoyed alot. heh heh, a new step towards new friendship for him? :D
anyways, the bunch of them went to the nearby kopitiam to chit chat and eat while bob and i headed back to his house for a filling dinner. his mum never fails to make me happy with her awesome cooking man!

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was supposed to go jogging with wendy today, but the venue was chosen wrongly (sorry man wendy!), so we went off somewhere to take pictures!

but wendy injured herself with this "act yi ge tu chu" thing, as claimed by wendy. LOL.

headed to here and there.. and finally went CCK stadium! to shower cause we're sweating badly. LOLOL!

went to town to have dinner and messed around with the sony desktop; and we didn't realize it was their closing time and we're there happily playing. like wah piangz. pai seh. ahhahaa!

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i'm supposed to accompany my mum for a check up at hospital on thurs, but it turns out that she don't need me anymore (cause my dad is suddenly free??), so she decided to abandon me at home to rot until evening time, which i'm supposed to meet that nina queen. you promised me to stick out your tongue to the max when you meet me uh!! don't back out on your word i tell you! LOL.

alright. really need t get some sleep. my room is getting messier day by day man.

2009-03-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates. this week has been really busy for me. but, it's really fulfilling! :D

went for a jog with wendy sometime last week.. i think it's thursday? god. i'm old -_-.
and speaking of wendy, i've found myself a new running partner! woots! act yi ge happy only. hahahaa.

headed down t meet amy thereafter, and went walking around jurong point where we insulted and played with loads of things there. needless to say, we didn't spend any money. bahahhahaa. cheap thrills are always the best when you're broke!

introducing to you wendy, our crazy photographer:

of course, photographers must never forget to take scenic photos, like these!

hahaa lucky wendy doesn't read my blog. or not she's gonna kill me :@
the usual camwhoring is done in the toilet..

and we found a new hobby! but no, i'm not going to blog it out here. it's abit too disturbing, so as they say.
but i'll give a small lill clue:

and dad was being nice, driving us out for a dinner.

the day ended with a really fulfilling dinner and a new supper spot!
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was supposed to meet the poly mates at cheng hoon's house, but the scorching weather and lazy bug got hold of me and i ended up heading down to amy's house to slack awhile before going off t meet them.

and yes, that was jerine, who's supposed to be in school doing FYP. but she took MC and went amy house t slack instead. HAHAHA. the meat-like thingy, was a type of cheese amy bought from europe. the taste was somewhat... special. taste like smoked meat. and the bowl with some disgusting pieces of thingy there? yes those are the cut cheese. and that idiot owner said she's gonna serve us with those whenever we go her house. -___-

went over to cck to meet bob and the poly peeps were late, so we trained down to the initial meeting place and waited for the bunch to finish reformatting their laptop.
and we finally reached the long-waited holland V! i thought it was my first trip there, but it turns out that is wasn't -__- abit mood spoiler lah. but aiyee heck. cos tingyun treated us fruit fondue and muddy mud pie! yesss. love you many babeee. :D

okay, i gotta get some rest now. my brain cells are dying at the rate of 1000/sec man -_-. kang xi, here i come~~

2009-03-21T12:27:00.003+08:00

sometimes, there are somethings that's not meant to be yours.
and no, i'm not talking about the cheesy relationship thingy, cause i think it applies to friends too.

have you ever felt how sometimes you've done your best to be as bff with them, their mind will never have you whenever they think of someone? i knew this long ago, and tried a million times, and everytime it failed. everyday i wake up to realize this fact, and now after so long, i finally got enlightened.

like some of them thinks, no point contacting someone who's not worth your time, right? heh.

as for now, i'm happy with the bunch of people i'm having now.

alright. i should get my teeth brushed and prepare.

i missed having night time chitchat with my loves (:

2009-03-18T22:09:00.003+08:00

reading some of my friend's blog, i realized something.
how come everyone seems to be like in a emotional state? like almost everyone's posts are all about realization and stuffs. i mean, yes it's nice to be realize things once in a while. but all at one go?? wow.

i think that simple meetups are more than enough to cheer people up, even though there's nothing done and a very impromptu one. (: thanks ♥s!

to a friend who seems to be in the same situation as me, don't worry about it alright. we will get over it :D

It's a random post anyway. a really, really random post.

2009-03-17T16:24:00.002+08:00

lao niang's laptop is officially down as of yesterday night. so pardon me for not going online these few days.

i'm sooo going t be bored to death without my house laptop man! ):

anyway, sidetracked abit.
my room is finally refurnished! yes! *dance around the room happily*
it's much emptier and simpler now, but hey i needed just that few empty spaces!
pictures to be uploaded soon, after i got my laptop fixed.

okay my life is really in a blue. that explains why my post has been extremely random.

oh ya, adding on, i really wish to save up to buy new camera.. or maybe a DSLR? hmmm.
DSLR are really the coolest shit man. i can't wait to retake my photography and take the superb shots!

speaking of which, i think camera is really an important tool in my life now, cause it helps to capture the memories that i have, since i really have serious STM. without it, i figured i would be thinking that my life is really too mundane and i'll go rob a bank or something to get the excitement.

nah, of course i won't be robbing the bank -.-.

anyway, as i was saying, taking photos and blabla. i think taking the right photos really helps to beautify the memories cause.. well no one likes to be taken ugly photos right? if you have a pretty/cute face, every angle would be nice. but if you have boring face (aka lao niang here), the only thing you can take is :D <-. or not, no one will like it? okay i'm sidetracked.
as i was saying, taking the right photos helps alot. but it doesn't help if your camera isn't as good as you expected. like my camera, i mean.. it has stuck with me for more than a year now (1 year and 2 months to date. lolol), but some functions really made me pretty angry cause it just disappoints you when you want to take pictures that are like, during that moment. the pictures just turns out blur/very blur/totally don't know what the hell was that and there's no more chance in taking it. don't you think it's really !~@#$%^Q#$%!!! and you wish you have a better camera?
thus, my thought of switching my camera to canon! omg when i saw the functions i got so xin yang yang! which, well explains why i really wish to get my freaking schedule done and over with so i can work my ass off and earn moolahs to buy the things i want. ROAR!

oh yea, i hope to buy DSLR camera too; who ever said you can't own 2 camera at once? one is more professional while the other isn't what. not good meh? lots of people can own more than 10 types of dressings, why can't i own more than 1 type of camera?!

speaking of which, i have alot of things i've yet to buy and do lor! i wanna go pedi/mani, i wanna have haircut, i wanna buy this, i wanna buy that... shucks. with the recession now, everything is so hard t get. i hope to earn enough money to buy a new laptop too. my old laptop is totally useless now cause switching it on and waiting for it to load takes me about 15 - 30 mins. yes, no joke. and if i didn't plug my charger in, i'll only have like 10 more mins of time to use it and dang, it's gone. tell me, how useful is this? *angry face*

alright you just wasted prolly 5 mins of your time reading this rubbish. :D

alright i hope to go jogging soon. need t burn off the fats; crunches too. oh god. fats are sticking on to me like parasites!

2009-03-14T14:56:00.004+08:00

forgotten.

have you ever felt "left out" or "forgotten" by people before?
and by saying "left out", i meant being forgotten by people easily when doing something, or deciding to do something, be it people that's close to you, or people that's not close to you. Some would say that it's forgivable to "forget" someone when they are not close to you because.. well, they're just not in your priority list to look for when they wanted to look for someone, or some group of people. And, some would also say that it's forgivable to "forget" some quiet or busy people because they just don't seem to be there whenever there's a meetup.

So is it forgivable if you are being forgotten by your loved ones, particularly the closer ones whom you hold on dearly? Or rather, how is it possible to be forgotten by someone who's in your priority list? Maybe, they are in your priority list, but, are you in theirs? If you're not, are you going to spend more effort trying to build that up, or are you going to give up and look for someone whom you think cherish you more? Then again, if you are in their priority list, then is it possible to be forgotten by them? If you still are, why is it possible? Could it be because you're someone that's just so easily forgotten, nothing special about you being the reason?

Let's say it in this scenario: Firstly, you have a bunch of friends whom you cherished like there's no tomorrow. you will attend the meetups no matter what unless you really can't, participate actively whenever you can. But, whenever your closer ones are thinking of meeting up or doing something, you will not pop up in their mind in their list. So, how does that feel? nothing? once or twice is fine, but, what if it's every single time?

whenever people tries to build up relationship, there will be a group of people in their mind, and constantly talks to them whenever they wanted to socialize. But, what if you're just not that person in their mind? and no matter how big or wide your social circle might be, you're just not someone who will make people remember easily. and this, is just depressing, i would say.

Moving on, if some of you are in a relationship, some might say that "oh, what's there to worry about? you have your other half to be there for you, we (no bgrs) don't have, so friends are the top priority! -blabla-" Comforting? yes, to a certain extent i must say. If your boyf happens to be someone who's very caring and girlfriend-priority, then yes, you can say that you don't really have to worry, cause you have something or someone to lean on or look for when you're feeling upset and whatnots. But, if your boyf happens to be someone who doesn't seem interested in going shopping with you, and hangs out with his friends more than with you (or even you with your friends), then isn't that souble stabbing? Then again, no one wishes to be made used of if this situation happens and they look for friends for comfort. but if they don't look for friends, who else can they look for? It's really depressing for anyone to see that whenever you need your friends, they don't seem to be there. Or, whenever you feel like trashing something out, they just briefly comment on something and skip yours thoroughly.

No one likes to be left behind. Humans are social creatures, they need friends more than anything, cause without it, all sorts of negative mental health appears and so on.

For someone who likes socializing/can't live without friends, meeting up with this situation really sucks to the core, even worse than when you fail your exams, or broke up with boyf/girlf and so on. It's like asking a gamer to stop gaming, or asking a shopaholic to stop shopping, or maybe a human being to stop talking to anyone.

2009-03-12T02:10:00.004+08:00

it's a really really long day for me today.
i spent like probably only 3 hours at home, and out for almost 21 hours?
but it's a fruitful day, cause the ohanas and some others had a suprise birthday celebration for our dearest, li ting yun. (:

as usual, we took really tons of photos. but i gotta wait for tingyun the boss t send me the photos before i can post it.
hope you like our presents and effort in this celebration! (:

we should visit botanic garden again for another round of picnic. it's really fun lor! i have yet to explore the rest of it :/.

came back home around late noon, caught a bit of 康熙来了 (woots, my favorite show!) and headed out again to meet amy love.
surprisingly, we didn't take any photos, and i only realized it now (!!!) we didn't even read the 17 mag i brought!!! omgzz no wonder my bag is so heavy. HAHAHAA.

met up with a few of amy's friends and they're sooo addicted to L4D. played and played and played until 11 plus to catch the last train. but hey, watching can be fun (:

another week is going to be wasted like that once again, and next week will be my official working week. that is, if they had remember they still got one more PT working there and is needing the schedule. i still owe people money lehhh. omgzz.

alright. 2.18am now, i really need to get my sleep. haven't been sleeping well lately :/.

photos to be uploaded soon!

lastly, happy birthday tingyun and tinghui (:

[edited]

was randomly looking at the pictures when i found this.
and i realized i missed it badly.
hmmm.

2009-03-08T13:33:00.002+08:00

sometimes, a hearty smile is all we need to make our days seem worth while despite the unhappiness before it. (:

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i miss going out adventuring with boyf, thanks to the moving stuffs i've been having in my room and boyf's total laziness.

anddd... after this week i hope to work almost everyday. or not i'll really quit that bloody job :@

okay pretty random. i just thought i needed to update my life a lill.

2009-03-03T23:32:00.002+08:00

i think it's really nice to be appreciated at times by people you really care, and knowing that they are worth your concern.
the feeling is great when you are being appreciated, so please people, it's pretty important to thank people at times, be it in msn, blogs or even sms. as long as the words conveyed all of how you wish to thank them, everything doesn't matter anymore (:

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side track abit, ty and co are back from bangkok! and they're making me really jealous cause i wasn't allowed to go :/. oh mannnn. i hope you guys did buy me something nice! (gien peng. HAHAHA) meet up soon okay! i wanna hear the stories!

it's been raining these days, and it's at a pretty wrong timing.
this got me stucked at home for the past few days as though i'm having study weeek.
but i hope everything's gonna change cause i had a few activities planned! :D

and boyf, i know you don't read my blog anymore but stop going to sleep only when i'm about to be awake in a few more hours' time! this is really maddening.

okay, shall make a more proper post when i have the time to; for now, i'm going to rot my days away by staring at the tv -.-.

btw, does anyone has any idea how to grab hold of the shows 心星的泪光 and 爱就宅一起? i know the latter is showing now but i haven't got the time to catch it (okay i don't know the time la. i want t catch all at one go!) i've been crazy over project runway too. like zhang said, i'm watching ancient shows (project runway season 2) hahahahahaha. wah lau old people what. cannot meh! :!@#$% lol.

okay, enough said. there will not be much pictures to be posted cause.. well i haven't been going out and no pictures taken. like duh -.-

oh ya, have i mentioned my hp is getting cranky these days? it deleted ALL my pictures in my handphone and all my important stuffs. i'm sooo going to send it for repair. so remember to inform me your handphone numbers cause this hp is getting menopause, i can't save any numbers into my sim card -.-.

2009-02-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

even though joleen's birthday is over a few days ago, looking at the pictures still make me smile like i just came back from the celebration (:

kay, 'nuff said. pictures time! they're so gonna screw me for posting up so late.

the few of us met up beforehand to give joleen a surprise, and since we got bored waiting for the rest to arrive, we decided to camwhore a little with the balloon given by the kind manager.

and so we continued with our camwhoring session..... cause i tell you, the main lead and the supporting lead is seriously taking their ownnnn sweeettttt timeeeee lor :@#$%
hahahaa.

and even though it's joleen's birthday, i gotta say she's pretty sway cos when amy gave what she thought it was a mushroom, it turns out to be a leaf (or a herb, claimed by the staffs there) and... joleen gotten it again when she got her soup. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

the usual procedure of digging-out-candle-holder-with-mouth game, and slacked alot more and off we went.

we're supposed to head down to the flyers, but it turns out that all the tickets are fully redeemed, oh well. so we headed down to marina square and settled down, where half of us left one by one, and lastly all of us headed back home after having dinner and a little shopping trip for carrie.

anyways, i think i kind of lost interest in blogging already. i don't know why. there's always so many things i wanted to blog when i was at that scene, but when i get back, the enthusiastic feeling just went off. ah well.

i really hope to spend my remaining holidays wisefully, so i don't have to live in regret, like i am now. so many thoughts running in my mind, so many unhappy events happening, so many decisions yet to make.

okay enough of the crap. channe 8, here i come~~

2009-02-19T00:39:00.003+08:00

life can be great at times, can't they? just when you thought things had gotten down to the bad end, it just turns right up and back on track.

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i'm back from chalet! well, was supposed t be back after thursday, but there's no girls left staying and it'll be pretty weird if i stayed on too, right? :/.

the activity planned was really interesting, and thanks alot everyone, for making this possible even though you're seriously pain in the ass, literally. hahaahahahahahaha (inside joke)

and dear boyf, please please please and another million please take care of yourself and heed my advice for once. you cannot afford to get sick! ):

and bestf, our meetings seem so on and off at times. but i promise you, i'll always try t meet you whenever i can, okay! (: (but you must accompany me go jogging, swimming etc also laaa @!#$%^_ okay lub you many many :D:D)

LTT and look-alike-me friend, thanks for the night talk and the walks. of course, camwhoring beats everything :P

and lastly, claudia chew, when are we meeting? i'm working real soon you know! ):

ps: i'll upload the photos when i gotten them!

2009-02-15T16:16:00.002+08:00

happy belated valentine's day everyone!

hope you guys had a fun-filled v-day!

anyways, my day started out pretty oddly, cause instead of celebrating with boyf, i headed down to befriend my tai sui. yea, i had to bai tai sui to get rid of the bad luck.
it's shockingly hot yesterday, and i've been sweating like i just jogged 4.5km after i stepped into the temple.

night time was a date with boyf, and movie thereafter. a very usual routine, i must say.

didn't take much pictures cause... well boyf just doesn't appreciate? hahaaa.

okay, i shall make my life more meaningful by going for a jog tmr. yes, i mean it!

2009-02-12T21:19:00.003+08:00

Stripped bare and naked

reading some of my friends' blogs and whatnot always remind me of the things i needed to blog badly.
but everytime i tried to do it, i chickened out and decided not to, for fear of showing everyone the bare and naked mind of mine.

this time, i'm going to do it, to clear my mind once and for all.

for my dearest gfs, sorry if i seemed to neglect you time and again for whatever lousy reason i gave. i really am sorry for not able to join you guys whenever my time clashes or not able to, so much that i'm willing to bite my tongue off just to join you guys. but no matter what, please always remember that you guys are always in my heart and mind, as i hope i am always in yours. despite the hidden quarrels we seem to have during on and off periods, i'm always hoping that we'll always stay together and meet up, even after 10, 20, 30 years down the road, so on and so forth. please remember that i always love you all from the bottom of my heart, and always the first piority in place with anything else.

to my poly mates, sorry if it seems like i sounded like some stranger to you guys already, due to the lack of meetings and all. sorry if at times i make the situation worse by making sarcastic remarks. because sometimes, i can't seem to blend in with you guys with the conversation made, and the distance we had, it just gets further and further away. partly due to the fact that we live in different directions, thus the time spent going home to interact is totally lost. next, the fact that sometimes i just don't understand anything you guys were talking about makes me feel really alienated. then again, i'm not blaming anyone for the situation now, since i'm at fault as well for not trying to salvage the situation. no one did. hopefully, the next time we meet will be much better shape, where we get to know each other as someone new.

to my.. outside friends, mainly C and E.
i don't think you'll read this, but i really hope to make our friendship a better one, and not with obstructions due to whatever matters. then again, i'm not going to force you guys to befriend me cause it just sounds like some pervert sick. but i hope we can get to know each other better, and hang out and maybe even shopping like any normal girls do. ah whatever, not like you're gonna read it..

to.... boyfriend.
i'm not going to complain about the quarrels we had and everything. because i believe that in a relationship, having quarrels from time to time is normal for couples. i expected relationships would have lots of hardship before sweetness can be harvested. but do i have the courage to continue with all this hardship? i don't know. it's so... discouraging whenever we met up with problems, one of us not doing anything to salvage it. the problem probably lies with me, so i'm sincerely sorry about it. i need you to know that whenever people whom i love deeply (friends included) is having a change of face, it always affect me alot, be it good or bad. yours is not exceptional, because you're probably the one that i'm seeing most of the time. so whatever happened to "compromise" and "love and not posses"? every line is blurred and hurt is inflicted in any ways whenever we quarrel. we judge what the other party should do based on our benchmark, and this is never good. i am a girl, i need to feel loved and pampered. i don't expect you to give me those in monetary wise, but expressing it to me is important, because i need to know that to get assurance from you time and again, since we've been having bad times almost every other day.
please just always remember that i always loved you like how we were in the past.

ah crap. i don't think anyone will be reading this anytime soon. it'll be good for me, cause it gives me time to rest and rot before anyone (if any) starts bombing me with questions.

i so feel like going overseas. sigh.

2009-02-12T17:41:00.002+08:00

a short post with nothing but pictures (:

met up with zen a few weeks back along with amy to have dinner at northpoint. did pretty stupid stunts, but enjoyed it lots ((:
hanged out at some void deck downstairs like some bengz and lianz and started chatting like nobody's business.

please promise me t meet up soon saxophonists!

20th birthday bash was done at changi airport, mainly cause bestf is flying overseas on the very same day, right before my birthday officially turns 20 months and 1 day.
walked around for dinner to be settled enjoyed alot too. like i mentioned, the best birthday with the simplest celebration along with the bestest love you can find.
come to think of it, i think i actually spent my whole birthday there even after sending amy off, and her flight flown. was supposed to wait for someone to send me back but.. oh well. luckily dad was out waiting for his stinky fish for CNY, so i gotten a free ride back home. well, not exactly a free ride, since i had to pay the price of waiting 3 hours in the airport alone for him to come. that time alone made me send about 100 people off singapore, and it's pretty funny to see that there's actually alot of people flying off with no one sending them. so amy, i think you should feel glad, cause you got all of us to send you off, and get our most updated pictures for you t see when you miss us during the 2 weeks vacation!

alright, pictures time.

the amount of pictures we took as a whole.

the people who turned up, adding jk in (:
thanks all (:

and ding, your cam never fail to make me happy! i'm so gonna steal your cam soon. muwahahahhaa!

2009-02-06T01:45:00.001+08:00

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,

It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult, but it's real.

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.

proper post to be done tmr, promise (:

2009-02-01T15:07:00.003+08:00

everytime i face problems with friends, i tend to think that it's other people's fault before assessing what really went wrong. and usually after assessing, i always know what happened.

this time, i think i screwed up everything.
and to think i hope to widen my social circle. it seems like i'm closing it one by one myself. wow, congrats babe.

stop letting your uneasy-ness get the grip of you, and everything will be fine. but not this time. not anymore. i know i'm gonna lose it whether or not, and everything changes.

time to say goodbye.

"a little whisper and smile.. and everything will be fine." (:

2009-01-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

one of the best thing in life;
to have the simplest birthday celebration, with most loved ones in your life.

thanks babes, i really love you all many :D

and bye amy, please enjoy yourself loads over there in europe! ((:

we'll all be missing you (your photos only. hahahaha!), so miss us too okay! lucky you, get to see our faces when you miss us :/. updated version one some more. hahahaa!

okay gotta go peeps. i'll update when i get all the pictures from lim ding dong and amy who flew off. *sniffs

tmr will be a brand new day, living with the life of a 20-year-old.

see you later claud! :D

2009-01-18T01:07:00.003+08:00

here i am now, at a friend's house staying over while trying to do my poster.
and i realized something pretty sad.. something i didn't expect.

alright. will be back home to spring clean tmr and rush my damn poster. this lousy laptop doesn't operate office 07. omgzz.

back from the house, and morning was much better. jokes here and there, but overall, your house is totally awesome! it's totally my dream house :D

took photos, will be uploading them when friend sends.

for now, i just need to wait for my steamboat feast to start and gorge myself to death along with the birthday cake, and a little spring cleaning plus poster design, and i'm done for the week!

alright i know my post sounds really boring. but i gotta get my photos in order to post more lively!

one small note: thanks boyf many many, love you my boy (:

back to facebook- sketching. it's fun!

2009-01-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

as the clock strikes 12, it would be a

Happy birthday boyfriend to you, my love.

sleep well, and enjoy the day later, and tomorrow (:

ps: no photos will be posted until my camera is being fixed.
oh dear camera~

2009-01-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

just when i was about to be convinced that i've slimed down alot, and on the verge of becoming anorexia,
the weighing machine tells me otherwise; i've gained kilos.

SO PEOPLE. I'M NOT SLIMMING DOWN LOR.

wow, my 4th resolution mentioned just got busted, thanks to the fats.

okay, i should strive to grow taller, like jerine. and maybe have 2nd puberty or something, at least i won't look sooo out of proportion. bahahahahaa.

okay, time for dinner now. photos to be updated soon, as soon as i get the pictures and my memory card + thumbdrives back.

time for a jog/swim miss xy!

2009-01-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

okay, a tad slow here. but since it's a new year, i ought to have some new year resolution for myself right?
only this time, i'm not going to name out all, for fear that i failed again and make my ego crushed to nothing.

the very 1st resolution would be...
to have a make-over for my room!
don't need to explain this righttt.
if i can get this done asap, i'll be inviting my gfs to come my house to chill! :D

2nd resolution...
to lead a healthy lifestyle.
okay that's pretty crappy but i'm turning 20 soon, i don't want my inner age to feel like 40 years old :/.

3rd resolution:
to forgive and forget.
for all the things whoever has done, whatever they are doing, and have a fresh new look on them (:

4th resolution,
to SLIM DOWNNN laa.
wah lau. fat okay. at least tone my muscles!

5th and last open resolution....
to make new friends, and remake old friends new! (:
there might be glitches here and there during the old times' sake, but hey, that doesn't mean they don't have any good points worth considering right? ((:

okay! till then people (:

signing off w love,
xueying.

2008-12-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

everyday i woke up feeling guilty for hating you,

you never failed to remind me why.

no wonder i still feel the same way for you for n years.

hi earth creatures! it's been a while since i had a proper post.

and no, this isn't going to be a proper post either.

but rather, some self talk to make sure i remember what the damn had i been doing for the past few months.

i have been feeling extremely low, judging by the posts i typed for the past months, and after reading New Moon and Twilight, it made me think hard. about my social circle, my relationship, my wants, my needs, my desire.

i have been like a zombie like what Bella was, but for not the same reason entirely, of course.

and while showering, it hit me hard that i really missed doing alot of things.

i missed hitting the beach, going for a swim, accepting impromptu decisions and hanging out with my loves.

it hit me hard, and made me realized with horror while not able to enjoy showering.

why, why had i become like this? i know myself clearly that i have never been like that, my colors being a dark shade of grey.

so why, had i stoop to this level? it really felt horrible, so horrible that i might feel the same way Bella felt, only hers might be 10x worse than mine.

i wonder what made my life became so dull once again, cause i know that if i hadn't been in a relationship, i would prolly go ahead and try bungee jumping or something of that sort *smirks*

then again, i'm not blaming the relationship i had. seriously, i'm not putting blame on anyone but myself i guess.

it's going to be a brand new year ahead, i don't want to bring this stupid feeling over and continue like this.

a new year is starting soon, and all my loved ones are not going to have more time spent with me anymore.

i ought to find something to occupy myself, so i don't have to dwell so much and become aunty grudge.

there's so many things i wish to do, i wish to buy, but restricted by so many things in so many ways.

how more grey can my life be?

hmm, maybe i really should try bungee jumping, to spice up my life a lill. or prolly learn driving/riding. but till then, i'll need to save up money to do all these.

ps: listening to bella's lullaby in youtube makes me feel so sad.

pps: everytime i hear minor based rhythm, i always feel sad. so pardon me for being ridiculous.

pps: i still hate fyp, and reading Twilight + New Moon totally made me forgotten about my report + design for poster. oh god.

2008-12-26T22:06:00.003+08:00

hello world,

i just came back from chalet not long ago.

chalet was very enjoyable, with cousins and their other half being so fun and everything (:

no pictures were taken thanks to my spoilt cam.

i promise to update something good soon, but before that let me sort out my mind.

i know it's really unhealthy for me to be dwelling into something like this, it's totally pointless.

like a friend mentioned, why waste time on those things when they are not worth your time? there's alot more things for you to look out for, for you to try and experience.

furthermore, we're at the peak of our youth now, so stop wasting time and wake up xy.

so, i decided to make my life more eventful after next week. (:

yaya, i'm procrastinating again. but hey, school work needs to get it done first right?

ps: i now understand why i felt Edward Cullen so attractive. the way he treats Bella, omgzxz. *daydreams

2008-12-23T17:21:00.006+08:00

after sorting out a zillion pictures inside my thumbdrive, i realized that i have alot of events yet to be updated. omgzxxz. the worse thing is, this laptop always jam whenever i tried to upload pictures. it's probably not friendly towards safari users :/. ah wth.

i'll try to update them asap, prolly by tmr. (you wish!)

till then, have an enjoyable christmas celebration people :D

ps: i need to send my camera for repair soon. oh my dear camera, be repairable, or not i'm gonna change you!

2008-12-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

facebook has made me lose the interest to update my blog with pictures; but since i promised myself to compile the expired pictures, i will do it. prolly tmr. :D

wait for happy posts my loves! (: photos might repeat from facebook, but hey, it's the pictures that makes my blog alive right? :D

as for now, i'll quietly do my report.

2008-12-14T01:52:00.002+08:00

neglect -- a very powerful action yet easily forgotten by people when they're doing it.

people usually neglect the people that's usually closest to them; because subconsciously they might think that since they've already gotten hold of it, there's not much need to put an effort into. instead, they'll turn their attention to their new found friends/lovers/affairs/what not, and slowly spending lesser and lesser time. but when they are about to lose their closed ones, they tend to realize it and try to salvage by putting their main focus on them, which by then, in turn neglecting the new found friends/lovers/affairs/what not, making them feel unwanted and utterly neglected like how the closed ones might felt before.

so how do you make sure you get to spend time with the people whom you think it's worth treasuring? and how about those new found friends, how do you make sure they're not just any short-term-friendship which slowly degenerates to hi-bye-friend or even worse, total strangers yet again?

of course, people should never be greedy to think that there should be a best of both worlds, but i find that people with new found friends will always neglect them in the end, thinking that their closed ones are the ones worth keeping, only to realize that maybe, just maybe, the new found ones might just ended be one of your closes one?

then again, i've never met this kind of people with this thinking before, the most recent ones i met are those that really gives you false hope and what not just to be kind and all, only to turn out that it's all a bubble that pops out when a needle is poked.

think about those new found ones' feeling when you chucked them aside after "using" them to spend time together while your loved ones are busy or perhaps, even neglecting you, and going back to them after they're not busy anymore; what if you're the one being treated that way, how would you feel if you think that that person might just be someone worth keeping, but they just wouldn't give you the chance to?

i believe that karma always exist; that god (of whichever religion you're comfortable with) is very fair, that they will always give you something in return if you met with something bad. then again, i've never gotten anything nice back after meeting so many unfortunate things in my life. *shrugs*

so, take your time to think about this: how often have you neglected people, and how often have you been neglected by people, and how does it feel to be having either/both occurring?

some sad realization; i have been seeing my smelly locker and colleagues more than i see you.

we seem to spend more time ________ more than _____.

your free days were never for me; and neither were mine.

i have been feeling extremely neglected, by people of all forms lately.

thanks for the gathering today babes, it made me feel like a happy pretty princess after all these unfortunate series of events.

i might be switching places to blog soon.. not everything should be shown to everyone after all, right?

alright, it's 2.30am now, i ought to smack myself out so that i can sleep and get up on time for the inhumane full shift work.

ps: this post is not pinpointing to anyone. but if you have some guilt to it, then serves you right. NEH NI NEH NI POO POO!

2008-12-13T07:57:00.002+08:00

had a lill shopping session with amy ♥ earlier, combed high and low for my chosen theme, only to find a somewhat decent top; not exactly the type i first thought of, but hey, better than nothing right?

fell asleep at 12 and woke up at a really unbelievable time; 5.45am.

while shopping, i realized that i wanted so many things, only to realize i might not want them at all; how contradicting.

look at the time now, it's 8am. time for me to lift my butt to prepare and grab a bite. i'm awfully hungry.

HELLO GFS I'M FINALLY MEETING UP WITH ALL OF YOU LIKE AFTER 3568593 YEARS! :D

let's eat till we puke later and still look gorgeous! :D

ps: i still wanna shop.
pps: bobby toong where are you?
ppps: i don't like fyp anymore.

2008-12-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

insomnia caught up with me once again.

and because of this, i'm having random thoughts once more.

a few slight unhappy events has been rolling into my life, making me facing the same old problems that i thought i can avoid it.

many things which i never get to know it; many things which i will never get to know it.

why are there some people who just doesn't treasure their friendship and perhaps taking it for granted, only treasuring SOME of them while totally ignoring the rest. how good is that to other people? it only makes a clique forms more small cliques.

of course, hanging out with people you're more comfortable with is a natural thing to do, but that doesn't mean you can't treasure the rest as much as you did to them just because you're not as comfy as those some right?

a chat with someone made me realize why do some people feel that way; and it's really saddening. why can some people be so mean? just because you think they're not worth deserving you doesn't mean you can't let them have the chance to, right? and usually people who doesn't let them have the chance to it's due to the misunderstandings they had for one another. so if one doesn't wish to open up and accept for who he/she is, then why do you still act nice with them? urgh.

and why, why oh why, after the years, can we still not get to an agreement with most of the things?

you dislike what i liked to do and don't allow me to do it, while i supported you fully with the things you liked to do, even though i may disliked it.

so why, why, why, can you not accept what i like too? how is this going to continue if this problem were to keep continuing?

changes. what are changes? do you change what we agreed on? or do you change the meaning of change, like what you mentioned?

so many things occurring that made me wanted to give up and throw everything away.

but can i really do it?

no, i can't. cause the feeling is too strong to detach it away.

but it's equally tiring if the other party is the one having the problem and not willing to budge and make changes.

do you give up at this point of time?

problems between human and human.

friends and relationships.

love and hate.

stagnant and moving on.

giving up and letting go.

i'm too stubborn and persistent to want to give things up.

but i'm really, really tired.

2008-12-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

of all days i get to be free; i've gotten way too free.
but on the days i'm really jammed-packed, i'm really too jammed to squeeze any other activities in.

frustration thoughts stayed in like a permanent resident, and happy thoughts seemed to be hiding somewhere inside the storeroom in my brain and locking itself up.

hello, time to get out! i need you ):
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went to IT fair on a sunday to grab the cool deals with family.
of course, i was the one asking for enquiries and making the deal.
it was crazily crowded like a tin tuna can where the fishes were packed to the brim. indians screaming for offers beside one another, pointing at me to make a deal, chinese using microphones to compete with the noise level selling the cheeeap cheeap norton antivirus programme, samsung and sony TVs and what not.
even the road was crowded with parked cars. everyone parked as near as possible to Expo, and it got as stretched as to my dad's workplace nearby, even to the place i used to work when packing for HP laptops.
luckily dad worked REALLY nearby, and saved the hassle to find parking lots; cause he just went in his company and parked.
nevertheless, it was a pretty happy day cos i got what i needed! (:

headed down to changi village for an early dinner and it was extremely sinful; seafood was the deal, and stomach was the seal.
pictures were mainly taken after meal and strolling was done at the changi beach, where my sister insisted that there's human finger bones buried beneath the grounds people walked, lied, ran and played on.

first of all, let me introduce to you, my dad.
i never knew my dad can be such a clown! no wonder i'm better at making goofy faces than having a pretty face. HAHAHAA.

the sinful food we ate, with the folks paying.

everytime i turn around and saw this old man sitting by the tree staring at the evening sky, i can't help but to think of "qian xian zui zong" that show where they show this scene and talk about how old is he, living alone and what not.

some random shots with my brother-to-be sister. wait, i think he's already brother when taking photos with me!

grandma praying with dad after dinner with my sister/brother photobombing.

sister/brother-with-a-stupid-hairstyle-that-looks-like-a-bird-nest: "eh looks like dildo!" ...???

the poor fishes that got hooked and died.

yes don't complain, i AM taking scenic photos again. NICE WHAT. NO?!

"eh eh, look here!"

"wah lau. lao bei ah smile leh." dad: "your camera drop then you know!"

dad: "keep back your camera la! @!#$%^"

come on bro, you're not pole-dancing. you look more like pole-peeing :@

yes flood you all to death with my scenic photos!!

some guy trying to fish; looks more like he's gonna drown any minute if there's a big wave.

hello dad, trying to act emo like those korean dramas? mama still loves you many many even though you're starting to dislike bobo la okay.

lao niang signing a name there to let everyone know. (including the ones below the sand)

sister/brother with her thunder thighs and i-don't-know-what drawing.

PRETTY LOH. it's just so relaxing to sit by the edge and listen to the waves crashing, excluding the noisy kids.

don't believe me? ask lau lau aka my grandma!

daddy throwing pebbles whenever he's at the beaches, always trying to hao lian to me cause i don't inherit that part of gene.

why is she/he so happy??

:O la bi xiao xin!

the day ended pretty late cause we headed down to my cousin's house for some wedding cake thingy at hougang and went back home.

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lessons were getting more and more dry and boring; and only half the class turned up, with one leaving at 1130 when she arrived at 1030.
luckily no-lifers jerine and amy is meeting up for dinner @ xin wang; the service sucked totally cause the waitresses and waiters were mostly china chinese. their english sucked as well. wah lau.
the day was pretty terrible for me cause it's just sooo boring. luckily ty and cheng hoon came by to visit me in class and i did a little sneaky window shopping while waiting for them.

im pretty tempted to buy the yellow top; cause i liked it alot!
i'm looking for a similar shorts too; where can i get it :/.

a little sneak peek of what we ate..

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sunday was a really hectic day for me; slogging my ass off till 11, and encountered a massive traffic jam that even blocked the entrance of the CTE from town.
luckily i was on bike and managed to squeeze through the massive jam.
pictures were really blur, but hope you can roughly see the difference!

during jam

after jam. the road usually should look like this. but ah well. the jam was really bad due to a major accident that totally squashed the car boot to nothing.

by the way, i heard RP SHL's director designed this.... weird-looking bear.

tell me, how is this like a bear???

alright. a very long post indeed. HAPPY READING! tmr will be a pretty busy yet boring day for me, need to send lim ding dong to die. FYI, majority of us haven't seen him for more than half a year.

oh well!

anyway, shall act inspiring for a moment by having this quote of the day.
"it doesn't matter how tall or how slim you are. what matters is whether you LOOKED tall or slim or not."
hmmmm.

2008-12-08T02:37:00.002+08:00

hi people!

live has been really terrible for me.

going back to work isn't making things any better for me. what a cheap labour they treated me as.

i'll update some random things on tuesday, promise.

as for now, i need to sleep badly. it's 2.38am now and i need to wake up by 7.45am. URGH

anyway, happy events are coming into my life soon! :D:D

my highly anticipated outings and what not. WEEE!

peektures to be coming soon! ((:

ps: bobby toong, you still owe me my shopping spree!!

pps: claudia chew, when are you free?! when can i get to meet you man!

ppps: GIRLS, I'M SEEING YOU ALL SOON :D

pppps: why is my face so squarish and non-female like? sads. *pouts*

2008-12-05T12:27:00.002+08:00

come on xueying. i know you can do it.

you just need the determination you always had when you wanted to do the things you liked.

so go and find it!

don't let your life rot just like that.

decide the things you want for yourself; not because of anyone, but you.

it's time to live for yourself and not for anyone!

make new friends, go hunting for new adventures, change your styles, change your mindset, change everything!

don't always live in your own comfort zone, always learn to breakthrough!

you may have lost many friends, but god is always equal right? they will, WILL give you something in equivalence!

so don't lose hope just because you feel that everything comes crashing down.

all you need is a helping hand and a strong heart to move on.

a helping hand might not be there always, but i believe, it's always mind over matters, like what hee chai always said.

if your mind is strong enough, you will get through this tide.

trust me, babe. i know you will.

with love,

xoxo

2008-11-29T00:50:00.003+08:00

i woke up in the middle of the night and doing things that boring people usually do.

temptations, frustrations, thoughts and what not.

then, this thought came to my mind...

have i done anything impacting in my life?

or,

have i done anything that impact someone's life?

i guess not.

so i decided to try out for the chingay parade motivators!

alright, boring people always do that.

pardon me.

the post shall end here.

2008-11-27T19:35:00.002+08:00

a lill update about my life before it became boring. extremely, boring.

ANYWAYY.

some photos will not have any stories behind it cos it's just way tooo back.
but some will have a short caption. so be patient with me before i get my boring life out of me and a more lively post will be up? (:

WELFRED'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

*which is like. 1 month ago? shit. sorry welfred! but then again, you don't read my blog la so nvm. HAHAHA*

carrie with caption: "AMYCHUA YOU DIE! MAKE ME WAIT SO LONG!"

a goofy super multi shot thanks to ONGHEECHAI.

CHURCH + SHORT DATE WITH ♥

went to church for my late grandma's memorial day. it's kind of like a qing ming jie for us chinese, just that it's ang mor version. got pretty bored of it cos i'm not someone who's very interested in pastor tallks. still....

had a short date with bob the builder after work on some particular day; dinner at fish & co, and rushed to toilet to bomb. no idea why leh, prolly due to the raisins that comes with the rice :/.

JUI KERN'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

celebration was held at phuture and zouk; so basically i was following them like a living dead since i'm not a fan of dancing nor clubbing. i don' even know how to dance, though i wish i could :/.

camwhoring session with amy was done and some stupid theories were created based on observations.
i find it quite true, don't you think so amy? regarding the theory about the lights off and grinding. *smirks
oh and by the way; amy claims that i was the first to be cam whoring in clubs cos she has never met anyone that does that. oh well, i'm bored. what do you expect? hahahaa.

REVISIT OF OLD PLACES ❤

dad acted nice and forced all of us to wake up early in the morning to go our old house area for breakfast and grandma's market shopping spree.
nothing much was done other than to follow my dad's order, had breakfast and marveled the vast changes that has been made since i left that place; and most importantly, cam whoring with my disgusting sister.

headed down to pierce reservoir as my mum wanted to bring her precious bobo out for a walk; and left with my dad while the rest of us strolled along the banks of the reservoir.

saw some interesting sights while on my way and ON the site itself; well, i guess different culture really has different practices huh?
anyway; i saw tons of monkeys on my way there; not something interesting, but hey, what are the odds of seeing a small monkey carrying another small monkey while breast feeding it?

F.Y.P.

fyp was almost a killer for me; cause i was the leader for that 3 weeks, and the activity will be done during my week; it wasn't bad, but i wished i could've lead my team better. but ah well, what's over is over, aiyee?

the evening ended with a few stupid group shots, but hey, it wasn't that bad right?

MEETUPS WITH AMY ❤

like i've mentioned earlier, i have been pretty lifeless these past few weeks after being stopped work for like god-knows-how-long, and luckily amy was equally lifeless too, so we've been meeting up pretty often.

still, we never failed to chat endlessly and take stupid shots + laugh at people, yes?
all in all, you never failed to make me (:

ah, i just miss my gfs badly. who on earth set that stupid date huh! ONE MORE MONTH TO GO BABES!
absence makes the heart fonder; let's hope it applies to us too yes? it's just so special for all of us to still be sticking together even though we had nothing in common; our likings for food is different, our taste for men is different, even our style is different. not to mention our mindset! but hey, we're still one close bunch of babes right? :D

i'm just so glad to have you all during my secondary school days and even after that (:
see you all soon ❤s!

anyway, i wonder if migraines is contagious. some of my friends are getting it, and i've gotten it myself too. but i've never gotten it before leh :/.

maybe i'm becoming sick soon :/ :/.

2008-11-24T12:40:00.002+08:00

how to settle your overdue fines.

credits to 27bslash6

2008-11-22T17:46:00.003+08:00

i'm looking for a faux fred perry long sleeve shirt; plain white/grey/black ones will do. i don't want checkered or PINK.

anyone got any idea where to look for it??

oh and a nice looking dress too! though i got no idea what kind of dress to look for. any suggestions?

shit i forgot. hardly anyone reads my blog. -.-

--

have you ever felt heartbroken for people before?

not directly, but towards the things that happened to them.

i felt so sad. but i know there's nothing i can do to it, since it wasn't my problem. but it just bothers me so much. the heartbreaking feeling. shucks.

stand strong guys. i know talks are cheap, but really, it really pains my heart to see you guys breaking down like this and all.

think about the others who cared for you; they have been standing by your side, supporting you in whatever decision you made whether or not it's bad.

sigh. what a depressing weekend to hear such news and all the happening..

2008-11-20T22:41:00.002+08:00

a loong loong post

i have been thinking alot, and about almost anything in the world, particularly about human. It ranges from relationships to friendship to how people think, act, behave to how people define if that person is worth being your friends and what not.

so, how do you determine if that person is worth making or not?
by first impression, i would say that majority of you will choose based on how they look.
i would say some of the selections will range from not fierce looking to extremely friendly-looking.
so are you the kind of person where people will always look for you to talk to in the first place?
or are you the type where you will look for people to talk to whether or not they are friendly?

i would say that i will look for people to talk to, but usually it's due to my fierce-looking face that scares people off, that's why i have to take this initiative.

i still remember how my secondary school friends used to say me. they're always afraid of me cause i look so fierce that i might eat them up any minute if they were to make me unhappy.
it's not like i wanted it righttt girls? but oh wells, now that you all know how i really am, i'm sure i'm MUCH better compared to carrie right right right? :D

speaking of the looks of someone, what will be the next factor that helps you decide whether that person is worth becoming a friend or not?
that's right, character plays an important role this time.
in fact, i believe character definitely decides in the end whether he/she is a good friend or not; agree?

so what kind of character do people usually like?
i have done a little research myself with the people around me.
yea yea, stalking people and analyzing them like they're some new species.
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no, of course not.

as i was saying, i have done a little research with the people around me.
i found out that people that are usually likable will have characters like being understanding, talkative when needed, able to joke, being very nice to people that's not even close at all, have a mind that somehow no one can read, and.. well, not much stand on things. meaning, they tend to agree when one explains or get overpowered by their opinions.
of course, i wouldn't say that my nonsensical research is verified, but according to certain sorts of friends i have, they are like this.
then again, i'm not pinpointing anyone for being like this, cause some so not have certain characters mentioned above.

i tend to envy people like them.
cause even though they, like any other humans, have flaws, but it always seemed to get overpowered by the good points instead.

so how do people think of me?

personally, this is what i felt:

my classmates in school thinks that i'm a quiet girl that has no need to talk to, a weird and fierce looking girl that's not even friendly.

my friends in school thinks that i like pushing blame to people, that i'm not willing to pull myself up and what not.

my girlfriends.. well, they just think i'm some sarcastic bitch that always criticize people in the shows, magazine, and even on the street.

as for me, i would say i'm a pretty boring person.
i'm not good at saying jokes, i'm not exactly a very talkative person cause i don't know how to make it engaging, and well.. i'm just a very boring person.
i don't have anything that i can be proud of, i have no achievements, i'm like jack of all trades but master of none, only i'm not even jack of all trades.
i have like, nothing.

i would very much like to accomplish something. in fact, many things. i have hoped to get a cert for a foreign language course, a life saver cert, a kayak cert, to earn enough money to buy the things i like for myself, to go overseas and what not.
but, i just can't and don't have any abilities to do so, mainly due to financial constraint.

i have many friends who have gone overseas a zillion times at my age with their friends, friends that's going to have overseas trip with friends, friends that have gone bag-packing, friends that went hiatus with family and even boyfriends/girlfriends, friends that have been to many places in singapore that i have never even heard of.

but there's just too many constraints that's preventing me from doing so. (alright, here i go complaining about everything and not doing anything again. yes?)
again, many people will say "be happy with what you have." "why so greedy?" and such.

but people have dreams they wish to fulfill right?
i have mine since like, primary school age.
so tell me, how long more do i need to wait in order not to be greedy?

some people will say, "there's a long path ahead of you."
but life isn't as long as the years are.
after graduation, many will be stepping into the working society and slogging their ass off for money.
so what's the money for?
to save up for future use, to repay the fees for our diploma/As/Degree, to further studies, to buy the "necessary" things needed for work, to feed yourself and so on.
so when will there be a time for you to pamper yourself and do what you want?

i guess there isn't much choices available as you get older.
you don't exactly choose what you want, neither will you get what you want even if you chose it.

like many people said, life is short. live as though it's your last day.
but how many people will do that?
tell me, do you?

--

i miss having hot cakes + pepper-filled hash-browns as breakfast. mmm.

will be uploading some pictures about my life this week soon (:

2008-11-15T14:03:00.003+08:00

CHALET PHOTOS CONT.

hi babes,

thanks for making the chalet so fun (even though we're practically doing nothing besides nua-ing inside the chalet room and taking stupid photos)
i'm ~~pretty~~ very glad that the few of us actually gotten closer after some hilarious heart to heart talk; and not forgetting all the stupid bitchings which we never failed to do each time we meet up!
in fact, after some series of events (which seriously, i don't know what either), all of us seemed even closer than ever!
we chat and gossiped happily like we used to, we eat and complained happily to each other, and best of all, we get to rot in yishun soon again! :D

like always, nothing can describe how much i love you girls.
thanks for everything and the memories,
and let's stay as we are "till death do us part" okay! :D

alright i sound like some creepy woman who forces my friends to stay with me -.-

but aiyee, gfs you get my meaning :D

ps: not forgetting i lost my card cause i was too happily taking photos with all of you.

i make sure all of you pay for it. HAHAHAHAHHAA!

--
alot of thoughts have been running through my mind lately.
i need to sort it clear before more and more things surfaces up.
and i really disliked it when this happens.

but i guess that's how it is when things get longer and more decisions are there for us to make.

--
i realized that ______ this nick is so not unique.
they even have some stupid clan for it.
not to mention someone even put a trademark and thinks that it's their special name or something.
yuck.
where's the originality? seriously.

2008-11-11T15:02:00.004+08:00

i haven't been blogging.

prolly cause i don't have the time, or simply cause i lost the interest.

i believe i'm feeling the latter.

anyways, i'll try my best to update before thursday of all the piled up photos i've been oweing.

plus, i'm super excited with the on-going renovation of northpoint, cause there's so many new stores opening up!
can't wait for it to finish renovating and become a no-life yishuners. HAHAHAHA.

andddd, i miss going swimming and jogging badly.

there's alot going on in my mind. hope to clear them off soon :/.

subaru challenge wasn't that exciting, but i did met some familiar faces (eg, SAMUEL?!) in and out of the area.

nevertheless, it's still a job that's worth taking up cause you get to meet many people, how adults handle with situations and conflicts (not very wisely thou, although surprisingly they ended off pretty okay again) and see how people react to things, people and their looks, behaviour etc.

okay very psychological i know. but that's one of my favourite subject okay!
don't be shocked if i turned out to be a psychologist someday :D

okay it's really a random post. shall end here now.

i'm seeing you later idiot! :D

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happily ever after; do you believe in it?

that depends on whether you chose the reality or the feeling.

after so long, i came to realize this thing.

this sad truth that even some agrees.

so that's a goodbye to you, and thanks for the memories.

i will learn to let go of things, so that i will live even more simpler and happier like i once was.

not talking about anyone in particular, but a feeling that disturbed me alot.

2008-11-07T11:56:00.003+08:00

i figured i should blog abit about my recent updates before all my pictures pile up and webs spun all around it.

so before i gotten my energy back (lame man's term, getting enough sleep), i'll post some decent photos i managed to collage before i became lazy.. erh, i meant, busy. (:

till then!

2008-10-29T01:27:00.002+08:00

A SHORT POST ABOUT NOTHING.

I'm on the very very bad swing side now.

read some stuffs that seriously got me infuriated.

must you know that person from your secondary school or related to you during secondary school in order to be very close with someone?

or can you only be very close with the people whom you meet with everyday?

can you not be close with people who's totally out of your social circle?

can it not be like meeting a new friend?

it's so funny to see how people react based on who they are.

if someone tries to befriend you sincerely, do you treat them coldly and find them annoying?

what if, YOU are the one trying to befriend someone sincerely, and they treated you the way you treated them? how would you feel?

why don't people put themselves into other people's shoe.

i don't get it.

i seriously don't.

2008-10-29T00:03:00.003+08:00

sometimes it makes me wonder what is on your mind.

or rather, am i in your mind at all? or do you look for me cause of ______?

disappointment, time and again.

how many more can i take, is that what you're trying to test?

well done, you just reached the limit.

that's it, that's the end.

one more time, and it's over.

goodbye.

oh, i forgotten about this.

thanks for the empty promises.

2008-10-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

i'm sick of job. and after the 2 weeks off i took, this feeling grew even stronger. i'm soo tempted to quit.

but i can't, cause i MUST get my prezzie from them at least! which means i have t endure another 3 more months ):

it's soo inconvenient and doesn't let me get off if i need to; they'll just complain and complain. i hope they sack me soon. (CHOY!)

anyway, i'll try to blog about my highly anticipated chalet on last saturday soon when i'm not working (:

fyp, studies, work, girlfriends, boyfriend, friends, classmates, family, food, money, pampering, ... ...
when will i ever get time for everything?

work seriously suck :/.

i want a hiatus!!

i wanna go bangkok, i wanna go japan, i wanna go china, i wanna go taiwan!

i wanna go so many places.

but none of them i can get to.

which reminds me i wanna go places where i can play water sports; bintan? bali? phuket?? :D

okay, dream on.

sorry for the random post.

gotta go, working later at 12pm. shucks.

*ps: oops, sorry amy, i posted your picture. AHHAA

2008-10-21T22:15:00.001+08:00

我受够了等待你所谓的安排

说的未来到底多久才来

总是要来不及才知道我可爱

我想依赖而你却都不在

应该开心的地带你给的全是空白

一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海

我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来

你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白

最后才把话说开哭着求我留下来

终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍

你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来

我的眼泪却一直掉下来

过去怎么交代你该给的信赖

被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖

从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来

过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在

而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏

已经碎成太多块要怎么拼凑跟重来

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白

最后才把话说开哭着求我留下来

终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍

你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离

2008-10-20T09:28:00.000+08:00

静静地陪你走了好远好远

连眼睛红了都没有发现

听着你说你现在的改变

看着我依然最爱你的笑脸

这条旧路依然没有改变

以往的每次路过都是晴天

想起我们有过的从前

泪水就一点一点开始蔓延

我转我的脸不让你看见

深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显

过完了今天就不要在再见面

我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸你双手撑在我的双肩

感觉有那么甜我那么依恋

每当我闭上眼我总是可以看见

失信的诺言全部都会实现

我吻过你的脸你已经不在我的身边

我还是祝福你过得好一点

断开的感情线

我不要做断点

只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言

2008-10-19T20:15:00.004+08:00

不願相信我的真心　最後換來一場絕情

omg i'm so in love with the voice of 于浩威!!!

2008-10-18T11:56:00.001+08:00

oversleeping is not an excuse.

2008-10-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

it's the BIG day for bob's sister! :D:D:D:D:D

woke up super super early in the morning (5am?) to scoot off to bob's parents' room t catch some nap before all of us had t prepare.
woke up and prepared frantically, and my hair seriously sucked. boo ):

nuff said; i'll just post pictures here. it's so hard to explain things (i think there's nothing much to explain about; except a few. i'll explain when it's needed yes?)

the bride with her sisters.

me with his sisters.
okay i know i look really terrible :@ !@#@$#%$^&*^%$#

with the family (:

boyf and extremely dark girl.

bride's pretty nails and cute lill megan!

megan is always sooo attractive to me, and she's very much attracted to cameras. so since camera = me, thennnn. :D
okay sidetracked.

here comes the groom and his brothers!
them and the punishments + blablahs.
the things that the sisters came up with, it's sooo WOW!

things of here and there, took lots of random shots and only to realize my camera battery is dying soon (!!!), decided to stop taking awhile.

it rained while we're about to go for their solemnization. luckily, the brothers are like damn rich or something; almost everyone had cars lor!! so lucky us get rides :D

witnessed their solemnization, and i have t say, it was seriously the most beautiful and happiest day ever so far!
the smiles on their faces, the wishes from their loved ones. (:
and of course, the bride is always the prettiest!

and sooo, after everything is done-ed, my stomach was growling very badly cause i didn't manage t eat anything after waking up late :/.
these cupcakes look deliciously yummy, don't they?
but NOOO. it's not nice :/.
it's got some weird taste like the ones i tried for carrie's muffins!! ROAR.

the last picture before my battery died on me.
i believe it's also the most prettiest photo so far; cause the lighting and everything.
so let's just let this memory stay as how this picture is (:

a short animation of them wearing rings:

bob and i didn't managed to attend the dinner, which i'm very much looking forward to ):
bob had some serious illness which worried the shit out of everyone.
up till now he still has this problem! :@
he had an upset stomach that made him poo-ed very liquid-ly, and not to mention constant giddy + headaches.
on that day itself he even gotten high fever! so i had to accompany him back. shucks.
the day just ended that abruptly without the dinner photos ):

but i was pretty comforted by the picture which i've been trying to get for agesssss.

a photo taken with megan!
eh, it's bloody hard to take with her okay, since she doesn't know me AT ALL and she finds me scary somehow; she's only willing to get close t me cause i got camera lor :@ god i sound so pathetic.
whatever it is, this girl is super cute! :D

okay, i shall end this last post very abruptly.
by the time you read this post, it's already past 1 week since this wedding happened and i'll be seeing my dear @^%# programme chair along with my parents.

and afterwhich, hoping i can run away to stay over at my long-waited chalet! :D

--
what would you do, if you're stucked in this situation,
where everyone blamed you for the things you do,
and none of them tried to understand and put themselves in your shoe?

what would you do, if the people around you,
isn't as understanding as you do?

will you ignore them, and lead your own way,
or will you get too troubled, and cry and cry?

if you were me, what will you do?

2008-10-16T12:38:00.002+08:00

met up with amy for dinner on one of the days; wednesday? thurs?? hahahaa. just either one of the days laaa.

and being uber nice of me, i headed down t her company t wait for her. but who knows she's soooo late :@:@:@ and it's raining too!! made me wait outside while it's still raining.
our initial plan was to go haji lane and see what's up with there; but the plan was kind of foiled as amy had to go register for her driving lesson. so STILL being very nice, i walked w her to there, while she complains about her work (like always. *shrugs).
and since no one attended the briefing, i headed in with her to see what they wanna brief about for signing up as student; and i ended up asking more questions than amy does! i think the lady was abit stunned by our questions anyway. hahahaa.

soooooo, after waiting for quite some time and paying a few hundred bucks ($123.something something, i still remember. LOL!) for a few pieces of paper and a paper bag, we headed off to the mrt station and took train t bugis.

andddd, we met this 2 stupid guys on the train; they just kept staring at us like we owe them money or what can :@!
so i thought they'll be gone soon; like prolly at orchard station or dhoby ghaut or something; places where bengzzz like t hang out. but NOOO. they alighted at cityhall too!! wah piang. and ended up we got called STALKER for nothing :@:@::@:@@::@:@:@:@
so much for the mood! my face turned immediately from :D to -_______________________- when i saw them for more than twice.

okay, sidetracked.
so after we reached bugis, amy was getting hyped as she hasn't been to bugis for like 43789659834 years (according to her), and so we headed over there while discussing about some stupid issues about fashion.
walked and walked and walked and walked, and finally we found the one and only belt shop that sells the waist belt i needed; and yayness! after much discussion and indecisiveness working in on us, we (yes we, amy bought 2 belts w me! YAY) bought the belt even though the price is pretty ridiculous.
amy got transformed into aunty chua; cause she knew how to bargain!!! wah lau. like fierce only can :@ hahahaa
sooo, the both of us happily went out of bugis street with our bargained stuffs and headed for dinner!
after rounds of walking in parco, the both of us settled down in NYDC and i tell youuuuu. the stupid waiter is damnn. stupid? URGHH #@$T%#^#%.

anyways, the both of us happily began t camwhore once again with my handphone; and time just passed soooo quickly!

okay, i shall just cut the wordsss and start w the pictures :D

dinner time!

and we realized that we're wearing and bringing opposite colors bags and shirts! WOOTS. ahhahaa.

so that marks the end of our busy day (:.

by the way, thanks for the many pages message you sent.
i really needed that. i need words of comfort very badly when everyone else just threw in the rubbish.
no words can describe how thankful i am to you.
but all i can say is, thank you very, very, very much for showing a path to me when i thought i've met a dead end.
thank you for guiding me through when i got lost.
thank you, really thank you.
sorry for having to pour out my problems to you when you're already having so many people sharing their problems with you.
sorry to add to your burden when it's not necessary.
but thank you once again, for being willing to listen to me.
thank you, many many thanks.

2008-10-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

headed out t town with amy and a few of my sec school pals on one of the... weekends?

ANYways, while waiting for the potatoe roger t pop out from the ground, the bunch of us saw this balloon festival thingy going on at northpoint. and there's this girl, she's DAMNNN tall! not t mention skinny too can!

trained down t somerset (the place which i've been to for 7 days straight on that week) and went centrepoint to look for heechai's pillow, and a little window shopping over at esprit.
dinner @ hong kong's cafe, and cam whoring session ended the day (:

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went sentosa with gfs on last last saturday! :D
not all were there though, some had last minutes changes and couldn't make it.
still, we enjoyed lots. yes? ((:

'nuff said. pictures will do the talking!
and hoonie, SEEEE the pictures longer can!!! stop BROWSING only :@ i took so long t blog, and you took merely 5 mins t finish up my post. ROAR.

some very unglam photos of my fellow gfs:

jerine and her SUPER white face. people, don't share your sun block with her, especially if its very expensive; cause she'll splurge on it!! :X

wendy and jerine's head on amy and my body. LOL

not much photos taken, as we spent most of the time playing nonsense game with one another. self entertaining, you may call it.
walked around vivo after sentosa and man, we're sooooo shagged!
still, we had loads of fun throughout the whole day even though carrie had t leave halfway; yes? :D

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okay, the end of my 2nd post :D
i'll blog till friday, so my left over readers can have something to read on my very expired life while i continue t rot and do nothing for the next few days. till then! :D

2008-10-14T17:50:00.002+08:00

okay i'm back! :D

let me blog all the very random pictures i took when at some extremely random time.

random #1:

CHILLI CRAB.

my dad became super nice somehow; he brought the whole family out t have a crab feast over at ang mo kio!

random #2:

my EE class has been venturing out to the "woods" behind RP for quite a few lessons; and being a camera handy-man, how can i miss taking photos randomly?
and yes, one of the photo IS a condom we found while walking. is it used or not? make a guess (:

by the way, my faci, he's pretty much a cam-whore too.

believe me now?

random #3:

i have been very very bored, so i became abit disgusting and took self-pictures where ever i went.

yea, disgusting, i know. HAHAHHAAH.

random #4:

as i have STILL been very bored, and for some weird reason, i loved snapping scenery photos, especially those with very blue-ish sky and rich green grass. perhaps it's due to the EE lessons I've been attending :/.

don't ask why are there helmets at some corners of the pictures, cause i took it while bob the builder was riding bike. -.-

random #5:

once again, for some reason my dad brought us out to have brunch at amk once again, (fyi, amk is once my hometown (: ) and took us to some ulu part in singapore.
and!!! of course i took pictures :D

yes, flowers and more flowers.
pretty contrast in colours, aren't they?
fyi, i didn't edit any of the photos after it was taken; so the colours were pretty much as original as it is from my dear handphone camera :D

random #6:

after taking 2 weeks leave from work, i suddenly missed working.
but i strongly believe it's because i left my keropok there and didn't have the time t retrieve back.
but thanks many many to wendy, who's willing t help me take back and pass it t me soon :D :D

random #7:

oh, did i mention i missed school quite alot too? yes yes i know i should go school bla-bla. (:

do i miss the days picnic-ing there. hmmm.

random #8:

bob and i went to terminal 3 some time ago, and look what we found!!

kinder surprise! but it's freaking ex i tell you -.-

bob was so happy! just like my water boys :D
okay random -.-

random #9:

bob went t bike shop for some repair some time... okay a long time ago. and i saw this pasted on someone's bike:

eh, the ultraman is the main point ah!! not the lengthy sticker :@:@

random #10:

my life has been pretty boring, considering the fact that i'm only hanging out with 2 people; amy, and boyf.
:@:@:@ LIFELESS.

anyway, bob decided t bring me to this place for coffee; and the ambience is pretty pretty!! AMY i'll bring you t there someday okay :D
but you don't drink kopi :@ so TOO bad! still, i think we can go there :D

yes, my many narcissistic shots again. my eyes gotten so weird :/.

okay, that shall be an end to my 1st post :D

2008-10-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

hi guys,

sorry for the uber lack of update.

i did promise i will update, but not now. my laptop is on the verge of crashing :@:@

besides, i just realized i haven't uploaded a single photo yet. HAHAHAHHAHA

sorry!

i'll update before the day ends later :D

and don't worry peeps, i have alot of photos t share, although all of them are expired ones. HAHAHHA

2008-09-20T06:39:00.001+08:00

happy birthday amy!

hope you enjoyed yourself last night and not puking all over and fainting -blabla-. most of all, get enough rest :D

2008-09-10T10:17:00.000+08:00

a day out with my darling girlfriends on saturday to have our very once-in-a-red-moon meetups!
i like the theme of the day; DRESS. gives me a reason t buy a lovely dress i've been eyeing on for a loooong looong time! MUAHAHAHHA.

enough said; pictures talk more than words!
NOTE: IT'S EXTREMELY PICTURES HEAVY!

met up with amy and joleen and headed off t take the train to meet the girls!
of course, we have t kick start the camwhore mood first, so we took a few pictures while rushing towards the station!

the girls for the day ((: (pretty unglam yes? cause i took without letting them know *evil laughs)

and a few more pictures before started gossiping and talking nonsense with one another.
and finally reaching the destination's STATION, we (or rather, I, since i'm the one holding the camera HAHAHAA) took a few pictures as well while waiting for cabbie to take to our destination!

my darlings who never rejects when it comes to camwhoring :D

so here and there we reached our destination; and began eating!
the food wasn't that bad.. some were real decent ((:

and then the long-awaited camwhoring session!

:D all the happy faces. happy happy!

went to toilet for some unfinished business and... you guessed it!

god. i think we look so pretty. (ZI KUA MAN LOL!!!)

wanted to get out of this hotel, but... we found out something very very inspiring!

there's a big big mirror inside the lift! :D:D:D!!!

so we took the lift all the way to the top level and down again while trying like mad to take photos and regain our posture when the lift door opens! muahahahaa

some decent ones that's not wayyy to blurry.

after some discussion we made our mind t head over to town for a lill walk.
so we headed out to take bus to town!

wendy's obsession with the Brandy's signature action and slogan, "Your Choice/Be Your Best."

wendy and i got very bored, so i forced her t snap many photos with me.

as you can see, she's really annoyed by it. AHAHHAHA

so i suggested something else t her;

are you ready?

AHAHAHAHHAHAHA. okay this is soooo ruining our images. LOL.

presenting to you; the disgust 8 (first 4!)
the next 4 wasn't themselves; we regret for any unhappiness caused by the lack of their photos.

wendy took my handphone and took random pictures.

so we reached our destination and head over to taka since joleen wanna ask her LV bag and chanel make up product; but we didn't went in LV caused of some misunderstanding.
and soooooo, we headed over to NYDC for a little birthday surprise for jerine and wendy!

the look-so-nice-yet-taste-like-____ birthday cake.

(:

the guys came over and the middle peeps began discussing some stuffs; so the corner people (i.e. ME) began taking camera out to snap snap!

huijuan with joleen's eye!
how come it fits so well :/.

joleen with hui juan's eye!
HOW COME THIS DOESN'T FIT?!?!

yours truly with joleen's mouth.
TOTALLY DON'T FIT. AHAHHA

the girls headed to toilet once again and took a few pictures!

the few of us parted soon after; and so the rest of us headed over to plaza sing to buy some stuffs; and the girls went back home while i rushed over to cousin siying's birthday!

while in the train. hahahaa

happy birthday dear cousin! :D

it's been quite some time since we took a group photo; wasn't complete, cause one of them didn't turn up. shucks.

overall it's still a nice day out with them even though there's some glitches here and there; but photo taking makes everyone happy happy right? :D

i'm so anticipating our next coming meeting! :D:D

and let's hope we'll stay like this till we meet our ends (:

2008-09-10T05:17:00.001+08:00

i have this strong urge to go chinatown and shop.
i wanna buy lots of pretty dresses and wear out w my loved ones!!

but i got no money. and this sucks ):

2008-09-09T10:19:00.003+08:00

so it's another day of meetups with them again!
only this time, we went t play sports instead of EATING.

ty and th were the camera woman of the day, since ty's darling camera isn't by her side; so i lent her mine to satisfy her cravings to take photossss. :D

some random shots while they're playing tennis.

and did you know? bobby TOONG actually squeezed out sweat from his shirt; like a cup of water!!! ARGH my god.

hoonie and i swam a while with the guys; damn its so hard t swim with clothes on!

went bathing and took a few more photos;

for a little extra info; ty gotten her bike license!!

and hoonie even dared t sit on it!

AHAHAHA okay this is lame -.-.

BTW,
did you guys know that milo changed their looks?
they changed from this:

to this!

the brand new pakage! :D comes with HOT and COLD. choose one!

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okay i'm just joking :D

and off we went to town for dinner and comex!

bobby toong finally bought a new phone for 214352 years (his old phone really sucks okay, even though it's working well)
happy happy, cause it's the same phone as mine! :D

had some unhappy incident; but everything is fine now! happy happy happy :D:D

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1st day of shcool at thursday; and it wasn't that bad. just that our first lesson involves us in a walk in the park to understand the nature and stuffs.

i never knew my school had a mangrove (however you spell it), pond, lots of weird-looking plants, and is bloody near straits of johor! what a noob man -.-

"Trees and Branches may fall. TAKE CARE."

the rest of the half class walking.

a lill gross to some girls; but hey, i think it looks interesting!

went off t work after school; and after work, wendy and i stayed a little longer to see the full timers practice their dance!
sexy aiyee :D

hello wendy! to think i'm seeing you 2 days later. *faints

2008-09-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

i feel so tired now.
but i thought i ought to update my blog first, before my mountainous pictures got way too piled up.

there won't be too many words; mostly just pictures.

it was a day out jogging on some -fill in the blank- day!
i think i'm pretty proud of myself; cause i managed to run 2.4km without stopping and mind you, i haven't been running for the past ?? months already!

as usual, camwhoring in the toilet before we left for something else.

a lil something extra;

this little birdie was saved by my parents when they went dog-strolling; its shivering very badly when they found it, according to my dad.
but the next day they went t set it free; and the parents managed t find it!!

BUT, the bird stupidly took off and knocked onto some metal planks and fell into the construction site -_____________-.

random, yes i know -.-

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a very long day after that as we went steamboat-ing at ty's house!

all of us went down t westmall to but food for steamboat and went separated ways to get to her house since there's a car, a motorbike and 10 people in total -.-

while waiting for ty the owner t get back, bob the builder and i went strolling around her neighborhood.

and it was food preparation time! :D

the bunch of us took photos while waiting for gareth, josh thiang and sze how to come.

the ever-nice sherrill baked us a lemon cheese cake and i swear it was very yummylicious!
and gareth+bunch are seriously damn act-enthu in these photos okay. AHHAA

loads of group photos taken!

((:

headed off t geylang after fetching sherrill and i tell you. 4 different transportations, and half of us got lost! HAHAHAHAHAA

after driving for like 1 hour +++ ( 2 hours +++ for my vehicle LOR!), we finally reached the bloody tau hway shop!

we're too full to eat anything else, so it's just plain tau hway jui and you tiao for the girls :D

went to west coast for awhile and left soon after; sooo tired!