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hello world.

my 3 weeks of holiday is ending really soon, and i wouldn't say i wasted my holiday doing nothing; but i can't say i have done alot of things either. holiday mood is still ongoing for me, probably because there's alot of events and birthdays during this 3 weeks of holiday and afterwards. oh, and did i mention about my birthday celebration? bob wouldn't be there to celebrate with me on my actual day, so i'm kinda disappointed. so people, i'm pretty free on my actual day! hahaha.

recently i'm super hooked to this taiwanese variety show - 大學生了沒, it's totally filling up my boring time, so much that it almost took away my sleeping time. yes, that's how hooked i am to this show.

christmas celebration was pretty brief for me, gift exchange was done with my friends, but overall i enjoyed myself alot. this 3 weeks of holiday, it made me thought alot, and i felt contented by alot of things too. well, at least i'm not feeling unhappy and ungrateful about things now! (:

i'm getting really lazy to update these days, facebook is the root of all evil to my laziness. hahahahaa.

6 more days to carrie's major 21st birthday, 5 more days till holiday ends and my 4 ut2, 3 more days to the start of a new year and my 42nd month with bob, and 2 more days to dingjun's birthday and countdown to new year! aww, so many activities! how i wish holiday is a bit longer :/.

sometimes, i wonder why do some people have to act like they're close to you, when actually they hated you so badly? if it's because they get benefit from the people they hate, then i'd say they're really pathetic. why still try to gain benefit from the people you dislike so badly? that makes you look thoroughly pathetic only, seriously.

anyway, i realized i have been missing out on you, you and your life! so people, please date me asap!

i think i should start taking back japanese language lesson and kickboxing lesson again; at least i would feel my life is more worthwhile. and start making money too.

you wouldn't have any idea of what i am going through right now..

anyways, i can't wait for my holiday to start! it's so gonna be filled with loads of activities! ((:

and mr T, please remember to make yourself free on 19th december, it's my sister's birthday celebration!

a short break from lesson and i'm here to revive my blog! (:

i had encountered some incidents recently and i realized how easily people can change due to the good things that they thought they've seen on the other side. like what people say, "the grass is always greener on the other side." and when people decided to jump to there, have they thought of the consequences that may come along with it?
people will comment regardless of whether you're doing something good or bad, and when you've decided to do it, why be bothered by what people comment? if you feel happy or relieved doing that, then so be it. they're not you, they can't feel what you're feeling. if you've done something bad, then suck thumb and move along already. why stay on and get angry over what has been done and said? just remember that if someone has jumped for you because they think that you're better or vice versa, they can also do the same to other people as well.

also, does being in a relationship means you have to lose your friends? i strongly disagree on that, and i'm sure most of my friends feel the same way too. but, does being in a clique gives you the right to neglect your other friends that you met somewhere else? you'll only realize soon enough that you're gonna lose all your friends faster than you expected. when the time comes, don't go back running to the friends you've neglected and complain about how bad they've done to you and everything, because you're doing exactly the same thing to them as well. if you feel that you have your boyf/girlf with you and that there's nothing to worry about, think again. when you don't have your boyf/girlf anymore, what are you going to do?

i swear this is not directing at anyone, but something that i've been pondering about after some incidents. i'm not trying to side anyone either, just a food for thought. (:

okay just nice, lesson started.