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recently, (okay not very recently, but you get the idea.) i've been seeing alot of people and hearing alot of stories about how they feel that people befriending them only for the advantages and benefits. and when they don't need you, don't just walk out of your life.

personally, i find that really saddening, because i've never felt that way towards anyone before, therefore i never knew people would really go to that extent to "make use" of friends for the benefits, not at our age at least. why should people go around making use of their friends in the first place? if you genuinely treated them as friends, then why is there even a thought of making use of your friends?? wouldn't you be guilty conscious of even making use of someone? that's just morally wrong man.

after all these, i realized that i'm really fortunate to have my friends still staying by my side after so long; maybe it's because there's nothing else to make use of with them and too used to having them by my side already lah. AHHAHAH okay kidding really, i swear. my secondary school pals, they're just too wonderful, even though they're hardcore clubbers (guys) and hardcore eaters (girls), i still love them many many, because they've colored too much rich colors in my life. (:

of course, not forgetting my poly mates and my boyf! with all of you in my life, there's nothing else i can ask for (:

thank you my lovely friends, for stepping into my life and making it so colorful. (:

hello world.

there's like 2 more weeks of school left before the main examination starts, and things are starting to feel alot more exciting as the day slips away.
now that my birthday celebration is over, i'm waiting for claudia's one, and my 6 other lovely girlf's too! this year is gonna be an awesome year i believe. (:

the only sad part is probably the fact that my dear boyf is off for 4 days only, and i'm missing him badly already. how are you doing my dear boy? i hope you're doing well and enjoying!

i promise to have a belated birthday celebration after you come back okay (:

okay my lesson is starting, gotta scoot off!

now that everything has been cleared, i'm feeling better already (:

i'm pretty upset by some of the things i've saw in facebook. if you don't really feel like coming for my birthday, i'm really fine with it. just seriously tell me straight and i can accept it.

and to you, i'm merely asking to see if there's any ideas for me. why so rude? if there's one thing you really need to learn, is to learn to socialize the right way and not be so rude to your friend's friend. so what if we have some complicating connections? how long has it been already seriously. grow up will you!

i don't care if i've unintentionally or intentionally hurt you emotionally or whatever crap. i feel what is right at this point of time with whatever i say, so shut your ass. i haven't felt so angry for a long time already, so just let me be.

what a ruined day. i should just go back home to sleep after school.

hello world.

my 3 weeks of holiday is ending really soon, and i wouldn't say i wasted my holiday doing nothing; but i can't say i have done alot of things either. holiday mood is still ongoing for me, probably because there's alot of events and birthdays during this 3 weeks of holiday and afterwards. oh, and did i mention about my birthday celebration? bob wouldn't be there to celebrate with me on my actual day, so i'm kinda disappointed. so people, i'm pretty free on my actual day! hahaha.

recently i'm super hooked to this taiwanese variety show - 大學生了沒, it's totally filling up my boring time, so much that it almost took away my sleeping time. yes, that's how hooked i am to this show.

christmas celebration was pretty brief for me, gift exchange was done with my friends, but overall i enjoyed myself alot. this 3 weeks of holiday, it made me thought alot, and i felt contented by alot of things too. well, at least i'm not feeling unhappy and ungrateful about things now! (:

i'm getting really lazy to update these days, facebook is the root of all evil to my laziness. hahahahaa.

6 more days to carrie's major 21st birthday, 5 more days till holiday ends and my 4 ut2, 3 more days to the start of a new year and my 42nd month with bob, and 2 more days to dingjun's birthday and countdown to new year! aww, so many activities! how i wish holiday is a bit longer :/.

sometimes, i wonder why do some people have to act like they're close to you, when actually they hated you so badly? if it's because they get benefit from the people they hate, then i'd say they're really pathetic. why still try to gain benefit from the people you dislike so badly? that makes you look thoroughly pathetic only, seriously.

anyway, i realized i have been missing out on you, you and your life! so people, please date me asap!

i think i should start taking back japanese language lesson and kickboxing lesson again; at least i would feel my life is more worthwhile. and start making money too.

you wouldn't have any idea of what i am going through right now..

anyways, i can't wait for my holiday to start! it's so gonna be filled with loads of activities! ((:

and mr T, please remember to make yourself free on 19th december, it's my sister's birthday celebration!