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sometimes, i wonder why do some people have to act like they're close to you, when actually they hated you so badly? if it's because they get benefit from the people they hate, then i'd say they're really pathetic. why still try to gain benefit from the people you dislike so badly? that makes you look thoroughly pathetic only, seriously.

anyway, i realized i have been missing out on you, you and your life! so people, please date me asap!

i think i should start taking back japanese language lesson and kickboxing lesson again; at least i would feel my life is more worthwhile. and start making money too.

you wouldn't have any idea of what i am going through right now..

anyways, i can't wait for my holiday to start! it's so gonna be filled with loads of activities! ((:

and mr T, please remember to make yourself free on 19th december, it's my sister's birthday celebration!

a short break from lesson and i'm here to revive my blog! (:

i had encountered some incidents recently and i realized how easily people can change due to the good things that they thought they've seen on the other side. like what people say, "the grass is always greener on the other side." and when people decided to jump to there, have they thought of the consequences that may come along with it?
people will comment regardless of whether you're doing something good or bad, and when you've decided to do it, why be bothered by what people comment? if you feel happy or relieved doing that, then so be it. they're not you, they can't feel what you're feeling. if you've done something bad, then suck thumb and move along already. why stay on and get angry over what has been done and said? just remember that if someone has jumped for you because they think that you're better or vice versa, they can also do the same to other people as well.

also, does being in a relationship means you have to lose your friends? i strongly disagree on that, and i'm sure most of my friends feel the same way too. but, does being in a clique gives you the right to neglect your other friends that you met somewhere else? you'll only realize soon enough that you're gonna lose all your friends faster than you expected. when the time comes, don't go back running to the friends you've neglected and complain about how bad they've done to you and everything, because you're doing exactly the same thing to them as well. if you feel that you have your boyf/girlf with you and that there's nothing to worry about, think again. when you don't have your boyf/girlf anymore, what are you going to do?

i swear this is not directing at anyone, but something that i've been pondering about after some incidents. i'm not trying to side anyone either, just a food for thought. (:

okay just nice, lesson started.

what will you do, if you found out that some things have started to tilt towards the direction of irreversible?

will you start to salvage, or will you just let it tilt till it disappears?

我是真的很不开心。

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a question for you silent readers,

does songs affect the way you think? or the way you think affect the choice of the songs you listen to?

i've been falling asleep in class and feeling utterly cold even with jacket on, and out of the 3 days i've attended the lesson, i've been feeling the same for all 3 days.

i'm afraid i might be sick already. ):

this sucks alot, cause i don't feel like doing anything at all.. not even caring about the grades. @#$%T$# suckkkkkkk.

okay back to presentation.