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I'VE SWITCHED!! (:

okay, it's really been a long long time since i last updated my blog. i'll try my best to post this random thought that has been on my mind for the longest time ever after making certain decision, so.. whoever that is still reading my blog can have 5 mins of your time wasted here when i'm done. (:

know what's more annoying? the fact that you're angry with someone, and they never knew it.

Have you ever met with an situation whereby someone apologised to you, and yet retaliate back whatever they just apologised in the end?

Personally, I feel that if you are trying to clear the situation through apologising, then you should just accept whatever that they said (regarding the matter and not too extreme of course), cause if you were to continue to retaliate, then the apology is not going to work anymore. Seriously, why apologise when you've already decided to rebutt back whatever they said? If you feel you're not in the wrong, then don't apologise. It's not going to make the matter easier in any ways if you apologised and then take your own stand in the end.

I have never talked anything bad about you in front of anybody. So please don't make me have the first time in doing that. But then again, you wouldn't have any idea at all, because you'll probably always think that I'm always badmouthing you to everyone I know.

It's a lucky thing that there's still my trip that can make me slightly happier, if not I would have been the most emo-whore on earth.

randoms.

I don't understand. Why is emma watson soooo pretty?!

and why is logan lerman soooo dashing in percy jackson?!

and the worse part is...

WHY ARE THEY YOUNGER THAN ME!??! :(

I realized I've been way too nice to everyone I know. Like always being understanding for whatever lousy reasons that people gives regardless of any event or situation, and always not asking further question about the reasons given and all. That, I think has got to stop for my own good, because somehow some people just took advantage of me. Then again, it's probably because they don't see me as important as I see them in my life, that's why they took advantage.

And also, I don't see the need to tell people that you miss them badly and everything when you don't even mean it. Because, wouldn't it be too tiring for you to try to keep in touch with people that you don't even deem them as important in your life? I'd rather they don't start all the "oh i miss you so much! when are we meeting up?" crap so that people wouldn't get any false hope of being able to meet them and all. Seriously? why bother saying that if you don't mean it? Just be true to yourself, and life would be so much easier because you won't have to deal with all the insincere interpersonal relationship.

So people, don't try to make any promises when you don't even intend to keep it. I've also decided to not talk to those that I realized I'm not as important to them in their life anymore, so that my life can be simpler, and to stop viewing whatever blogs/facebook stuffs that they have. They lead their life, I lead mine. As cruel as it may sound, I'm losing friends for good.

Ahh, now I feel so much more relieved after letting this out of my mind.